Crap
I haven't updated this in a long time... A lot has happened.
Costa Rica was wonderful. We did lots of fun things and I took lots of good pictures. I say this about every place I go, but I would really love to go back some day. I've looked into studying abroad there, but I think it would be too expensive. I found a house by Playa Blanca that's only $5500, but it would be too expensive to fly down there all the time. Maybe I could just move there. I wish.
I have my last final for the semester tomorrow at 7:30 am. I don't think I'm going to do too well on it, but right now I really don't care very much. I just want to be done with school. Maybe in the fall I'll come back with enthusiasm because it's my last year and I'm actually doing something that matters (research). I'm not sure how that's going to turn out because it requires a lot of time. Maybe that's what I need. I still don't have a place to live next year. I think I'm just going to wait until the end of the summer to find somewhere. I'm sure I'll find something.
Me and Steve broke up. We always said we were happy, but we really weren't. I know that we were at times, but there are too many things in our lives that kept us from really being happy. I think right now, neither of us needs to be in a relationship.
I think that people need to live on their own before they try to live with other people. You learn a lot when you don't have anyone to rely on. Then you don't go into it expecting all the comforts of home.
I know there are a million things out there that I could do with my life, but I feel like there is nothing. I can't shake the feeling that everything I'm doing is for nothing and that I'm going to end up doing something worthless for the rest of my life. I used to think that I would be ok with being a housewife, but now I think that I would go crazy. I need to do something that's going to matter sometime down the road. And to do that, I need to be on my own.
Costa Rica was wonderful. We did lots of fun things and I took lots of good pictures. I say this about every place I go, but I would really love to go back some day. I've looked into studying abroad there, but I think it would be too expensive. I found a house by Playa Blanca that's only $5500, but it would be too expensive to fly down there all the time. Maybe I could just move there. I wish.
I have my last final for the semester tomorrow at 7:30 am. I don't think I'm going to do too well on it, but right now I really don't care very much. I just want to be done with school. Maybe in the fall I'll come back with enthusiasm because it's my last year and I'm actually doing something that matters (research). I'm not sure how that's going to turn out because it requires a lot of time. Maybe that's what I need. I still don't have a place to live next year. I think I'm just going to wait until the end of the summer to find somewhere. I'm sure I'll find something.
Me and Steve broke up. We always said we were happy, but we really weren't. I know that we were at times, but there are too many things in our lives that kept us from really being happy. I think right now, neither of us needs to be in a relationship.
I think that people need to live on their own before they try to live with other people. You learn a lot when you don't have anyone to rely on. Then you don't go into it expecting all the comforts of home.
I know there are a million things out there that I could do with my life, but I feel like there is nothing. I can't shake the feeling that everything I'm doing is for nothing and that I'm going to end up doing something worthless for the rest of my life. I used to think that I would be ok with being a housewife, but now I think that I would go crazy. I need to do something that's going to matter sometime down the road. And to do that, I need to be on my own.