Strawberry fields forever..
Two more days left in the semester and I'm ready to go insane because I still have a final left to take and a final paper that is due and I need to get a portfolio together for creative writing, but instead I'm sitting here watching the snow fall, and I'm thinking too far into the future of all the things I'm looking forward to. Like winter break, and seeing Brett, who I keep pushing off plans with because I just never have the time lately and I really miss him, because he's one of those people in my life who has been there through good and bad and when we talk, I remember who I am. And Kelly and Jen will be down for break, and Kelly I especially haven't seen in so long, and I'm really looking forward to making plans with both of them, for pretty much the same reasons, they know me, like no one else ever could cause no matter how many new great friendships I've made over the years, none of them could replace the years we all invested in each other. Jacque texted me the other day with the realization that we've been friends for a decade now, and it made me think about the way time cements some people together and how irreplaceable those people will always be.
And me and Rick are going to Massachusetts and I'll be auditing some of his masters-level courses which I'm so excited about. 10 days of just me and my beautiful man, and all the time in the world to write, and write, and write, and I can't wait.
Plus, if nothing else, I'm looking forward to all the stress of the semester and of the writing center to just leave and to feel relaxed, cause I haven't felt that way in a while. This semester has been rough, because I really worked my ass off but I think my grades and GPA boost will make it worth it.
The only way this could all be better is if my Grandpa were here to see how much I love life today, and how happy I am. Fortunatly, he did get to see me doing well and healthy before he passed away, which I am so unbelievably grateful for, but I wish I could tell him about all of these great things and he would be so proud of me. I miss him everyday, still, but I try to keep positive and look at the ways it's brought my family together, because it really has. I am closer to them than ever. Even me and my Dad get along so well lately. He's even giving me and Rick the timeshare Villa to have for vacation over spring break! But I'd give the world to have my Pops back. I really would.
Christmas is in less than a week now, and I can feel his absence stronger than ever, but it's weird because at the same time, I know his spirit is still with me and I can feel that too. Anyways, I'm going to try and get some sleep because tomorrow I have to get up early to finish all my semester work. Peace and love to all.
And me and Rick are going to Massachusetts and I'll be auditing some of his masters-level courses which I'm so excited about. 10 days of just me and my beautiful man, and all the time in the world to write, and write, and write, and I can't wait.
Plus, if nothing else, I'm looking forward to all the stress of the semester and of the writing center to just leave and to feel relaxed, cause I haven't felt that way in a while. This semester has been rough, because I really worked my ass off but I think my grades and GPA boost will make it worth it.
The only way this could all be better is if my Grandpa were here to see how much I love life today, and how happy I am. Fortunatly, he did get to see me doing well and healthy before he passed away, which I am so unbelievably grateful for, but I wish I could tell him about all of these great things and he would be so proud of me. I miss him everyday, still, but I try to keep positive and look at the ways it's brought my family together, because it really has. I am closer to them than ever. Even me and my Dad get along so well lately. He's even giving me and Rick the timeshare Villa to have for vacation over spring break! But I'd give the world to have my Pops back. I really would.
Christmas is in less than a week now, and I can feel his absence stronger than ever, but it's weird because at the same time, I know his spirit is still with me and I can feel that too. Anyways, I'm going to try and get some sleep because tomorrow I have to get up early to finish all my semester work. Peace and love to all.