Breathless

[cleanrain]

Darkness surrounded me as I knelt on the floor rocking back and forth with my head on my knees. Humming softly, I repeatedly intertwined my hair between my fingers into a loose braid. I was calmly praying, singing, soothing and sobbing the way through another night with no sleep. How many nights have I been here? I don’t even know; more than days,

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[cleanrain]

Thanks for leaving a note. It is great to hear from people that are one in God and in their faith in Him. Brothers and Sisters in Christ....we may never meet, but are never strangers in The Fathers eyes we are all one family....his children.

In regard to the writing I posted:
It was a time when I was very ill, and never slept...NEVER...because of physical problems...Chronic problems...many things were tried to this little lab rat named Jana but to no avail. I new even in the worst times, God had a purpose in it and I learned to rest in Him, spiritual rest even though I couldn't have physical rest. I grew so much in my faith during those times and can truly say I am thankful for the pain, physical, emotional, mental....etc. It brought me closer to God in ways I cannot even express.

To sum it up...we tried a weird surgery, kind of a "i don't know if it will work but it is the only thing left" thing..... :)

and it did help some...my quality of life is immensely better than it was during those years. Oh my gosh, I felt like I could actually live a little.

(sorry I am babbling but...you are a captive audience now....bwwhhhahhha)

I can truly say that I am grateful that I was not healed completely because, those physical weaknesses are still a reminder of where I was, and where he has brought me. That is a good thing.

Sorry I went on about it...I just excited about my journey sometimes and I am able to share it now.

Did you ever find a political group you were happy with on LJ? Let me know if you do.

Thanks again :)