Momentum
I don't want to get ahead of myself, but things are starting to look up. Let me rephrase: things are still the same, but my perception is changing. The inter-faith shelter program ended on Sunday and I haven't allowed myself to go back to street living. In turn, God has been providing me with a roof at one of the shelters. I was dreading this process but now that I'm in the middle of it it's beginning to get much easier. Yes, the system's flawed and it's completely time consuming but I realize too that I'm doing this for ME and if I'm at a point where I have to jump through hoops to get what I need, then so be it.
I have also started to associate myself with some local organizations in an effort to build myself a community. I've met some pretty great people and they're inciting me to become a better human being so I can bring something to the table. I'm realizing just how much of a Fresnan I am and I'm working on ridding myself of a lot of this negative thinking I didn't even realize I had. Essentially all I want is to be happy and to let others pursue their own happiness... even if it contradicts the definition of mine.
Anyway, I feel I'm heading in the right direction. I am starting to affirm my positive attributes to MYSELF and I'm working on some healthy boundaries. It can get tricky but I feel pretty good about myself today.
I have also started to associate myself with some local organizations in an effort to build myself a community. I've met some pretty great people and they're inciting me to become a better human being so I can bring something to the table. I'm realizing just how much of a Fresnan I am and I'm working on ridding myself of a lot of this negative thinking I didn't even realize I had. Essentially all I want is to be happy and to let others pursue their own happiness... even if it contradicts the definition of mine.
Anyway, I feel I'm heading in the right direction. I am starting to affirm my positive attributes to MYSELF and I'm working on some healthy boundaries. It can get tricky but I feel pretty good about myself today.