Heartbroken?
As I heal BLAH BLAH BLAH.
You know when you wanna go on the pull you have to lift your heart AND open it. That.
My spirits are up, & Baby is recovering too ( hurrah! ), and... I just don't want to raise my hopes. And my heart seems genuinely unable to open.
15 years of being told I'm shit as I am too injured to hold down regular work...
Is this what Heartbroken is? It's not a specific person ( there were a few chicks I liked who turned me down obviously. 15 years is 15 years ), as much as a 'loss of possibilities'. That chunk of life that comes from a decent date, and how I was pretty-much banned from it by the local 'things' ( with a heavy Hell's Angels presence lying through their teeth as we now know ). That many whiney lazy demanding good-for-nothings, and that many liars too. That's A LOT of heartbreak.
I suppose it's a good thing. There is no crumpet in Bromley, and North Londoners are miles away ( and NEVER travel that far ); so...
I might as well enjoy the music. At least I have my stinky li'l pussycats at home to keep me company. That keeps me happy when the world is being it's usual non-functional self.
I am so glad Baby is stable. Nice :)
You know when you wanna go on the pull you have to lift your heart AND open it. That.
My spirits are up, & Baby is recovering too ( hurrah! ), and... I just don't want to raise my hopes. And my heart seems genuinely unable to open.
15 years of being told I'm shit as I am too injured to hold down regular work...
Is this what Heartbroken is? It's not a specific person ( there were a few chicks I liked who turned me down obviously. 15 years is 15 years ), as much as a 'loss of possibilities'. That chunk of life that comes from a decent date, and how I was pretty-much banned from it by the local 'things' ( with a heavy Hell's Angels presence lying through their teeth as we now know ). That many whiney lazy demanding good-for-nothings, and that many liars too. That's A LOT of heartbreak.
I suppose it's a good thing. There is no crumpet in Bromley, and North Londoners are miles away ( and NEVER travel that far ); so...
I might as well enjoy the music. At least I have my stinky li'l pussycats at home to keep me company. That keeps me happy when the world is being it's usual non-functional self.
I am so glad Baby is stable. Nice :)