Feb 05, 2016 05:26
No, not a happy post. This is a disaster.
'Much as we recognise you have a disability you do not qualify for PIP help.'
So now I am dropped below the bread line and have to live on the old Iron Rations that led to my legs blowing all those years ago ( ~£13 a week for food ). If I don't work I can't afford to go out. And with literally no wiggle space left now ( for real. There is literally no wiggle space ) I can't afford to save up to cover emergencies.
I can just about cover my insurance policies still, but... Only just.
Literally no wiggle space at all. And I have already had to increase my painkiller intake just to get through.
I can also barely walk. The stress has caused my muscles to seize. Already. My slight limp ( when relaxed & rested ) is now very pronounced, even in the flat ( where I am at my safest ). There is no money to pay for emergency Taxis any more. Bromley is going to be a struggle, even if I can afford to go out ( no work now means no Social ).
I'm exhausted after just day 1, am fluffy-headed due to the pain-killers I've had to take more of, and am genuinely terrified.
Key enemies are now pain, isolation, exhaustion, & hunger ( £13.00 a week doesn't buy much food does it? After Cat Supplies it's £10 A WEEK for me ). This is gonna hurt, a lot.
Secondary risks include Painkiller Addiction and the return of the Suicidal Thoughts that can come with my old Depression ( from 2003-ish ).
I'll have to live this way for at least 2 months. It is genuinely possible I'll have to live this way long-term ( the Govt IS this violent ).
Of course I'm terrified. Rations this tight blew out my legs last time. I may be a whizz on key subjects but I am not Jesus with the bread & fish...
i can haz hoomin rites?,
scary shit,
my dried frog pills,
adaptation,
psychological wotsits,
smoke signals,
typical english oppression,
charidy mayte,
healthy stuff be warned,
russian revolution,
life,
old fart putting the world to rights,
fybromy-hell-gia,
in my defence...,
the secret sex life of dried fruit,
wurkywurky,
equal rites,
what part of 'disabled' did you not get?,
cheapo,
i do not do politiks komrade,
luxury,
croydon torys,
you're taking the piss right?,
important,
mad as a box of frogs