I've done the math.
hen it comes to dating I need to meet a Kung Fu Bellydancing Fashionista who can fight with an axe & work leather; and who ideally has a tank.
Yeah, that should be fine. There are loads of those about for when I shift this PTSD ;)
Yeah, still working through issues. I got one of teh little toads a while back, and a second one is now exposed as being an idiot gossiping drunk with an aggression problem, but even so.
I dunno.
It's the lack of justice that got me. That's what has made it so hard to move on. Physically I have moved on, obviously; but Mentally I still have 13 years of 'why were you so cruel?' to shift. I know the reason why they were so cruel is because they can't survive in a place with real law & order, which is why they congregated in Croydon and shifted to a gangland agenda ( many of the Police around here are lazy and corrupt after all ).
I think I've only got about 2 years left to work through, so we're nearly out; but it's taking it's damn time. Life eh?
Found someone else brave enough to gob off about teh Crime to The MP. Wonder if the local kids will 'do' him for telling the truth ( like they did me ). But, now I'm checking out other places, it's obvious Croydon is a burned out shell ( socially ) of what it once was. It's simply crawling with drunks & druggies, and there is nothing left of the old Social Diversity that was once there.
I say this from a Selsdon perspective. I'm having trouble thinking of myself as a Croydonian at present. I work here, live here, & shop here, sure ( I was born around here after all ); but my heart is now elsewhere. Well, it's settling in elsewhere.
And that's the thing. How do you big up a place when it's a tip? Only someone with major corruption issues would do that. Which leaves me back where I was etc etc.
I see the place as work now. Not 'home'.
Another fun night in Bromley, but I am so skint at the minute that it's VERY hard to get anything done. Partly this Govt, and partly Business taking time to pick up momentum ( Project Bitcoin is only showing profit on paper at present. I expect to see real profit by Jan next year in theory ). My health has returned enough to get some work in now ( thankfully ), so I should be able to get some more cash in soon-ish. I've also managed to get a spark of life out of the dj'ing laptop, so may be able to do a few gigs there ( enough to pay for replacing it hopefully ).
We'll see. I have a few people curious about the music I'm into in Bromley now, so if the seeds germinate I might well have a gig.
Yeah, life is slowly plodding on. Just wish I had some money to work with. Everything is a struggle at present. It's a nightmare. I'm definitely striving; but if no-one has any money to spend I remain scraping the barrel. Which is not exactly useful.
Doctor Who seems interesting. Although I am still rather dismayed about Vastra. First Doctor Who character I have fancied since Amy Pond ( who was NEVER single ), and it turns out she is married AND gay!
Give a boy some hope BBC!
I keep forgetting that at my age there is no such thing as a single woman. Such is life.