Virus, anyone?
I'm so effing annoyed at this weekend. I love going home to see my parents and friends but at the same time I hate it. There's a weird vibe about my house in Aurora. I'm not trying to get all spooky or supernatural but I seriously feel a negative presence, or maybe it's just because I associate my old home with being unhappy that I always end up feeling unhappy when I'm at home. Does that make sense? Anyway, I got so depressed seeing my dad with such a skinny body...he really isn't well. the drugs the hospital put him on are really taking a toll...And my mom is feeling it too. She's soooo tired and I just wish that they could just sell the damn store that's not making them any money in the first place, and sell the house and just officially start over! Ali's usually my ray of sunshine in Aurora, but she went out of town with her family, so maybe I wouldn't have been so depressed if she were here. And plus Lauren couldn't hang out either. I guess I should have called Matt, but he's always been someone I hung out with when I was already in a good mood, not if I needed someone to cheer me up. that's not supposed to sound bad, but you know, you have those friends that you always look to when you really need a boost, and Ali and Lauren are those friends for me.
I think I gained about four pounds just from eating so many meals. I felt bad though, cuz eating it is something my parents and I really treasure, but their schedules are so much different than mine. It was either wait 6 hours for dinner or eat two meals. Well, I love food.
Lauren's coming over tonight! Yay! Something to pull me out of this depression. The last two nights I bawled like a baby in my room for at least an hour. I don't even know why.... I just felt like i had the weight of the world in my shoulders and stomach. Maybe it was from all the food I ate.
I'm going to Praise in the Park at 6...I hope it's as good as I'm hoping. For now, I have to finish all the stuff for History of Rock and Roll I didn't get to finish because of the stupid virus on my computer this weekend! Ugh!
I think I gained about four pounds just from eating so many meals. I felt bad though, cuz eating it is something my parents and I really treasure, but their schedules are so much different than mine. It was either wait 6 hours for dinner or eat two meals. Well, I love food.
Lauren's coming over tonight! Yay! Something to pull me out of this depression. The last two nights I bawled like a baby in my room for at least an hour. I don't even know why.... I just felt like i had the weight of the world in my shoulders and stomach. Maybe it was from all the food I ate.
I'm going to Praise in the Park at 6...I hope it's as good as I'm hoping. For now, I have to finish all the stuff for History of Rock and Roll I didn't get to finish because of the stupid virus on my computer this weekend! Ugh!