Never giving up
lately..i've been having some troubles inside of me. dont know if its just me being my worst enemy or if its really something bad. im trying hard to fight it off and i've been praying about it. its gotten so bad that i've wanted to hurt myself. and i told myself if i was going to hurt myself or if i died that i'd be doing it for my family. i deserved to be nailed to a cross is what i kept saying last nite. ryan and chris thanks soo much to both of u for showing me ur caringness and love towards me. u both showed Christs' love for me. u both made me stronger in my faith. i swear last nite i wasnt feeling my own feelings but those of my friends. i care so much for u guys. in class yesterday a question was brought up if u would die for ur friends, most of everyone around me said no. not me. i dont have normal friends. i have a spiritual family thats always there for me. schools the last place i wanted to be today. my faith was strong throught the day and got stronger as i came home. for all those ppl who were feeling upset or angry im praying for u and i never stopped. u all mean so much to me for u all to be hurt. i should take the hurt for u.
"i feel like i should be nailed to a cross, he didnt have to do it for me, i deserve it"
"no man no u dont"
"hey, he did it for u so u didnt have to"
*tears*
highlight of my night, that first line was me, the second one was ryan, the last one was chris. that last line gave me tears, cuz once again i felt renewed in what i believe and what i no is true.
im absolutely sick of hearing ppl say to me " i dont care" u no how that makes me feel? well im used to it. to all those who do care. i would die for u all. thank u so much for caring. just listening to what i have to say shows me that u care.
"its just me" thats another thing i used to say and still do sometimes. im stopping.
if u care enough for me, please comment in here. cuz i no where im goin in life and i no what i have to do.
God be with u all and bless u.....he has for me....still does..im alive
"i feel like i should be nailed to a cross, he didnt have to do it for me, i deserve it"
"no man no u dont"
"hey, he did it for u so u didnt have to"
*tears*
highlight of my night, that first line was me, the second one was ryan, the last one was chris. that last line gave me tears, cuz once again i felt renewed in what i believe and what i no is true.
im absolutely sick of hearing ppl say to me " i dont care" u no how that makes me feel? well im used to it. to all those who do care. i would die for u all. thank u so much for caring. just listening to what i have to say shows me that u care.
"its just me" thats another thing i used to say and still do sometimes. im stopping.
if u care enough for me, please comment in here. cuz i no where im goin in life and i no what i have to do.
God be with u all and bless u.....he has for me....still does..im alive