hard to explain.....

[christfollwer7]

this is hard to explain in some ways...yet when i can be happy im not cuz i feel others and what they are feeling. i just wanna get outta here...yesterday was great since i went straight from home ( 10 mins) to jens house with all my friends and Renee :) and stayed there the whole time, i really enjoyed it cuz i wasnt home and i was away from family. sounds mean but i just need to be away from home alot. i need ppl to talk to..i need ppl to tell me how they feel so i can help. i need something more outta life. i need to bring up faith in ppl. what else am i good for? i have no idea whose gonna comment on this since no one commented on my last one...o well ill live. i have strong feelings rite now, and i've had them for a long long long time. i texted jay yesterday nite, and then he called me back and asked if i needed to talk, and i sed no and he asked what im thinking about and i told him....Jesus. i was ( and still am ) deep into God last nite, today i guess i just wanted to die. knowing that some are just not feeling all that great, makes me upset. i want everyone to be happy with themselves and live life to the fullest. i just got grounded again today for smarting off to my mom ( i apologized ) so im grounded for today and tomorrow. life goes on..............

God loves u, he wants to help, he wants u to talk to him and he wants u to believe in him, when u think hes not there or doesnt care, hes standing rite by u, when u fall and u think no ones there picking u up, God has already broken ur fall, he knows what ur thinking, he just wants u to ask for it. he wants u to be happy with urself. he trusts u. hes NEVER left UR side...EVER.

God bless all of u....i no he has on me.

i love u

DoG