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I have worked in this bookstore for 21 months.
I get so bored sometimes that I act like a real asshole to this guy Doug. Today I told him that the only reason why this other guy on staff, Rhys, calls him his "cuddledoug" is because he can tell that Doug is the most homophobic guy here. I know by now that Doug has no sense of humour whatsoever, but I just can't stop doing things like this. I want to push limits in this store, even though I know that nothing around here ever changes. And it's not like I strive to be mean to Doug, it's just that I want him to snap out of this daze he's been in for the last 20 years.
Also, it's really hard to fight the urge to just automatically direct every softspoken guy with a ponytail to the Metaphysical section.
I'm tired of tight-lipped smiles and "29.98 please"'s. Problem is, it seems I'm addicted to money. Looking forward to going down to 3 days a week when school starts (maybe 2 would be even better...) and hopefully I won't even miss the paycheques. (ha)
Great thing is, every other area of my life feels really awesome right now! Life seems exciting even though I'm not really doing anything new at the moment. I just have a feeling that something new isn't very far away. Maybe it's just a new frame of mind picked up from all the people around me whose lives are changing.
I'm surprised sometimes. I'm not nearly as nice and generous a person as I thought I might be. But I feel pretty ok, regardless.
I get so bored sometimes that I act like a real asshole to this guy Doug. Today I told him that the only reason why this other guy on staff, Rhys, calls him his "cuddledoug" is because he can tell that Doug is the most homophobic guy here. I know by now that Doug has no sense of humour whatsoever, but I just can't stop doing things like this. I want to push limits in this store, even though I know that nothing around here ever changes. And it's not like I strive to be mean to Doug, it's just that I want him to snap out of this daze he's been in for the last 20 years.
Also, it's really hard to fight the urge to just automatically direct every softspoken guy with a ponytail to the Metaphysical section.
I'm tired of tight-lipped smiles and "29.98 please"'s. Problem is, it seems I'm addicted to money. Looking forward to going down to 3 days a week when school starts (maybe 2 would be even better...) and hopefully I won't even miss the paycheques. (ha)
Great thing is, every other area of my life feels really awesome right now! Life seems exciting even though I'm not really doing anything new at the moment. I just have a feeling that something new isn't very far away. Maybe it's just a new frame of mind picked up from all the people around me whose lives are changing.
I'm surprised sometimes. I'm not nearly as nice and generous a person as I thought I might be. But I feel pretty ok, regardless.