sadness
yeah. so i'm beginning to realise how hard it's gonna be. i didn't want to wake up this morning. not because i was tired, but because i really, really don't want to face what's coming. it will be so so incredibly hard seeing courtney hanging out with josie, my old best friend. i'm so paranoid she's pushing me away. i hate not having a best friend. i have no-one to call up and tell them how i feel. it will be so embarrassing when i have no-one to go with in french or latin. i HATE this. i just want to go click with my fingers and make everything right when it's not. i know i can change. i'm not going to be mad. i'm NOT going to get angry. because that will make courtney hurt and stressed, which is why she didn't want to be so close. i really want to talk to her about how i feel, but that might be making it intense.
i've just realised how much my icon describes how i feel. i want to cry so much but i can't :*(
enea <3333 you're the one person i can really talk to right now. do you want to start emailing each other again? because the timezones suck? could i have your address again so i can send you another letter, i don't think that one is really gonna come :D
i've just realised how much my icon describes how i feel. i want to cry so much but i can't :*(
enea <3333 you're the one person i can really talk to right now. do you want to start emailing each other again? because the timezones suck? could i have your address again so i can send you another letter, i don't think that one is really gonna come :D