what am i feeling? what am i doing wrong?

[christa_irene]

ahhH!!! im having a mental breakdown and it's driving me nuts, im obessed with thos cli che` of love. I mean randomly i've been thinking of him so bad and im not even sure if it's the right guy, like i have random dreams about him, and random thoughts. I mean i look at dates and im going nuts, im so jealous and it sucks i'm used to geting what i want and not having to try to hard to get him, and now it's become a task that i need to complete if i never see him or talk to him again i think i'll go nuts, seriously i know how much i like this kid i can just picture exactly what he looks like, and just smile..im so in love with what we were* "were" keyword..ah i hate it! I can't get whatever i want anymore because everything that went wrong was my fucking fault and im so sick of the way i've been acting and i want to tell everyone ive hurt or pissed off that im sorry..i'm not like this but i have the symptoms of a love, a love i want back.

^ sry about the random thought..actually no i'm not this is MY livejournal i can write whatever i want..read it, i dont care, think its BS? *get over it*

neways just got home from my aunts..gymnastics 2nite? idk maybe if i feel up to it, i'll update u on my night later.

baby believe me it's only a matter of time

please
feeel
the
way
i
feel
about

you..

xox
christa

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