*Looong Time..*
Wow-It's been forever! Not that anyone reads this or anything!..even though Codie probably checks it every once in a while! Let's see here..what to say? Since my last entry, I have added an amazing guy to my life! His name is Sean and I am so happy with him!..We've been through more than we should have had to go through but if it came down to it, I would be willing to go through it all again! Me and Codie still talk sometimes..not much, we're just both busy I guess! He's still a good friend! Well, I'm trying to take life easy and just let things go the way they want but I'm still so stressed out! I have so much to do all the time and it seems like I just never have time for me! This year has pretty much sucked and I am sooo ready for it to be over! Tomorrow night I have a pageant that I'm gonna be in..I hope I don't fall flat on my face!..but knowing me, that will probably happen! Um..I'm on spring break right now, hasn't seemed like much of a break though- cheerleading tryouts and getting ready for the pageant has taken a lot of my time! The end of school is almost here and I should get down on my knees right now and thank God for that! My freshman year has been the worst one yet! Hopefully next year will be better! I've made a lot of new friends and lost some too..some good ones! People have just changed, and the worst thing is knowing that they may never be the people they once were..and you wanna change them back but you can't..it's their life and you have to let people make their own decisions, their own mistakes! You sit there and want your old friends back, want them to be the people that they were before they started going their own direction..most of all, you're jealous because you see people filling that "best friend" spot that once belonged to you..but then I sit and think from the perspective of that person who was such a good friend of mine..do they think the same about me? Do they think that I've changed and that people are filling their spot? Then that puts a whole new spin on things! I've spent this whole year..watching..watching people come into high school one person and after just 7 months, some of them are totally changed!..some for the best and some for the worst! I can just see how much of an influence people have on our lives and all because we want to fit in..but really, why does it matter? Why is it so important to fit in? Because people will make fun of us or not want to hang around us? So what!..Maybe we should all just stop worrying so much about what other people think..maybe for once, we should just be ourselves..because only you know who you truly are...
Well, enough of my rambling on..
<3Christa
Well, enough of my rambling on..
<3Christa