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It's really nice to be in control of my life. How I feel and what I do.
After stupidboy, I'm treasuring this so much more. My self-esteem is no longer suffering. My emotions are under control. No longer will his little actions send blood rushing to my face nor tug at my heart so badly I feel like crying. No longer will I feel so miserable about not being able to just tell him straight in his face.
Now, I'm happier. I feel less vulnerable and yes, happier. I really don't want this to be taken away from me.