I feel like cutting it open tonight, tonight.
I'm giving up. I'll never win. I'm a sucker. I sit, and I listen to everything everyone tells me. I sit there and just take it. I don't speak my mind and I let people walk all over me. This.. is a problem.
I let Tyler feed me things that I want to hear. But the things that I want to hear and the things he says are not true. All he does is lie. & the funny thing is he sucks at lying because he's always getting caught up in them. I caught him again tonight and he's mad. He's mad at me because I caught him. Him and I are done again, but it's not over. It's never really going to be over.
Things are heading downhill, for all of us. The only thing keeping me going is the slight chance that Brad and I might actually go out. That's what I'm hoping for at least. Or the slight chance that Nick will call again. I suck at everything I do, But yet I am just SO GOOD at fucking things up. I hate the thought of being alone.. And that's exactly what I am.
I let Tyler feed me things that I want to hear. But the things that I want to hear and the things he says are not true. All he does is lie. & the funny thing is he sucks at lying because he's always getting caught up in them. I caught him again tonight and he's mad. He's mad at me because I caught him. Him and I are done again, but it's not over. It's never really going to be over.
Things are heading downhill, for all of us. The only thing keeping me going is the slight chance that Brad and I might actually go out. That's what I'm hoping for at least. Or the slight chance that Nick will call again. I suck at everything I do, But yet I am just SO GOOD at fucking things up. I hate the thought of being alone.. And that's exactly what I am.