Big news!
My period came tonight! I've never been so happy over something so bad. No one has any idea how big a relief this is for me. No one could understand how scared I've felt over the past month.
I saw the doctor two weeks ago. My first time. I was petrified. Matt came with me, and I went in, got weighed (ugh!) and had my blood pressure taken. The nurse left to get the doctor then came back saying she had to leave for a delivery. I was like, damnit. I thought I'd have to come back AGAIN. She suggested I go up the street to eat something and come back in an hour. We went to the diner, and I started crying. Thank goodness not many people were there. We went back to the doctor and I cried twice while waiting. My legs felt like rubber when I'd get up to get water, I was so nervous. Anyway, the doctor came back and did an exam and said that everything looked and felt fine. She listed several reasons as to why periods skip or stop. She prescribed pills to make me period come. She said it should come after a couple of days and to stop taking them when it does. She said if 2 weeks have passed after taking the last pill, I should call her. She said she'd call if something was wrong in the pap smear results, which would be in 2 or 3 weeks?!?! She wrote a prescription for a blood test of my endocrine system which I did the next day. My doctor said they call about it regardless of the results. So, I took my last pill last Thursday. I started panicking again. I started feeling cramps last night, but then, I've had the same kind of cramps three or four times in the past 3 months which made me think my period was coming those times and it never did, so I wasn't expecting it. I'm just so happy. I'm also surprised how minimal the cramping is. I'd expect a heavy period with horrible cramps...but it's light and not painful. So I just wanted to thank those who were supportive and cared enough to show concern over the past few months. It means a lot to me. I was mainly scared because one of my biggest fears is not being able to have children...which is one of the very few things I really want in life, and I thought something was wrong with my ovaries that would make me unable to in the future. But that's what the pills were for, to make sure nothing was wrong with them. I even called my mom and told her I got it...I'm probably the only person who would ever announce such a thing.
So anyway, Matt and I left his house around midnight last night and drove down here to Wildwood. There is NOTHING to do. It is freezing and has pretty much been raining all day. And it's not expected to stop anytime soon. My knee is in excruciating pain and the rain makes it a lot worse. For those who don't know, I have really bad knees. I was a dancer for many years and not just graceful ballet dancing, but hardcore dancing, so now and then, one of them starts hurting (thank God they never both hurt at the same time)...and when the weather is like this, it's so much worse.
So that's about it. My birthday is about 2 weeks away...I've already cried about it twice. School starts the same day...it always starts on my birthday. I'm sort of looking forward to it, but that will change within a week of starting. Luckily though, I'm taking 2 classes online this semester, so I only have to go to school for two classes.
I think that's all...goodbye.
I saw the doctor two weeks ago. My first time. I was petrified. Matt came with me, and I went in, got weighed (ugh!) and had my blood pressure taken. The nurse left to get the doctor then came back saying she had to leave for a delivery. I was like, damnit. I thought I'd have to come back AGAIN. She suggested I go up the street to eat something and come back in an hour. We went to the diner, and I started crying. Thank goodness not many people were there. We went back to the doctor and I cried twice while waiting. My legs felt like rubber when I'd get up to get water, I was so nervous. Anyway, the doctor came back and did an exam and said that everything looked and felt fine. She listed several reasons as to why periods skip or stop. She prescribed pills to make me period come. She said it should come after a couple of days and to stop taking them when it does. She said if 2 weeks have passed after taking the last pill, I should call her. She said she'd call if something was wrong in the pap smear results, which would be in 2 or 3 weeks?!?! She wrote a prescription for a blood test of my endocrine system which I did the next day. My doctor said they call about it regardless of the results. So, I took my last pill last Thursday. I started panicking again. I started feeling cramps last night, but then, I've had the same kind of cramps three or four times in the past 3 months which made me think my period was coming those times and it never did, so I wasn't expecting it. I'm just so happy. I'm also surprised how minimal the cramping is. I'd expect a heavy period with horrible cramps...but it's light and not painful. So I just wanted to thank those who were supportive and cared enough to show concern over the past few months. It means a lot to me. I was mainly scared because one of my biggest fears is not being able to have children...which is one of the very few things I really want in life, and I thought something was wrong with my ovaries that would make me unable to in the future. But that's what the pills were for, to make sure nothing was wrong with them. I even called my mom and told her I got it...I'm probably the only person who would ever announce such a thing.
So anyway, Matt and I left his house around midnight last night and drove down here to Wildwood. There is NOTHING to do. It is freezing and has pretty much been raining all day. And it's not expected to stop anytime soon. My knee is in excruciating pain and the rain makes it a lot worse. For those who don't know, I have really bad knees. I was a dancer for many years and not just graceful ballet dancing, but hardcore dancing, so now and then, one of them starts hurting (thank God they never both hurt at the same time)...and when the weather is like this, it's so much worse.
So that's about it. My birthday is about 2 weeks away...I've already cried about it twice. School starts the same day...it always starts on my birthday. I'm sort of looking forward to it, but that will change within a week of starting. Luckily though, I'm taking 2 classes online this semester, so I only have to go to school for two classes.
I think that's all...goodbye.