Unmotivated and fucked!
I don't know why I'm so lazy. I hate doing work, but if I do it I feel so much better with it done then I do having to madly copy things at the last minute from others. God! I'm not failing... yet... but I can't get a fire under my ass to do anything. School has taken a backseat to everything else and tht's not good... and it's also just so flying by so an assignment due in a week ends up due tomorrow it feels like. Shit, it's already February... I don't even remember October through January.
I missed out on DUSTED this year for three reasons:
-tons of work due monday
-Geoff's been working overtime like crazy so I only get to see him Saturday nights
-I couldn't get enough energy to get up, get ready and get out there to do it. I also would have been a downer since I've had no energy to even smile lately.
I really need a week to just sit around and do nothing or for someone to beat me into doing homework and assignments.
I remember being in highschool where, sure I didn't do my homework unless it was checked, but I knew what was going on and how to do it and I did the assignments the minute they were handed out, not 30 minutes before their due.
Movtivation, where have you gone? Why have you left me? COME BACK!!!
I also had a breakdown today in class. I felt it coming last night and there was no way I could stop it. It also doesn't help that when I need it explained everyone around me either can't explain because they don't know, or they can't explain because they couldn't explain if their life depended one it... or even they explain sure, but you're a dumbass for asking and you feel worthless in the end. That's what I get for going into a male dominated smart person program.
I'm gonna go do my assignment now... no worries, I'll be back to complain some more
I need to start writing again... I miss my old stories (I feel like I'm not artsy anymore because I'm not allowed to be)
I missed out on DUSTED this year for three reasons:
-tons of work due monday
-Geoff's been working overtime like crazy so I only get to see him Saturday nights
-I couldn't get enough energy to get up, get ready and get out there to do it. I also would have been a downer since I've had no energy to even smile lately.
I really need a week to just sit around and do nothing or for someone to beat me into doing homework and assignments.
I remember being in highschool where, sure I didn't do my homework unless it was checked, but I knew what was going on and how to do it and I did the assignments the minute they were handed out, not 30 minutes before their due.
Movtivation, where have you gone? Why have you left me? COME BACK!!!
I also had a breakdown today in class. I felt it coming last night and there was no way I could stop it. It also doesn't help that when I need it explained everyone around me either can't explain because they don't know, or they can't explain because they couldn't explain if their life depended one it... or even they explain sure, but you're a dumbass for asking and you feel worthless in the end. That's what I get for going into a male dominated smart person program.
I'm gonna go do my assignment now... no worries, I'll be back to complain some more
I need to start writing again... I miss my old stories (I feel like I'm not artsy anymore because I'm not allowed to be)