I can't find my spirit
So yeah, there's really nothing new or exciting to post that has happened in my life. I turned another year older in October and became another year wiser (was kinda funny actually). OH, yeah, Fred Meijer passed away on Black Friday so now everyone is worried about what's going to happen to the company. I guess only time will tell.
One good thing is that I have been seeing less and less of my ex which makes me very happy. It's not that I hate him or anything like that, it's that I haven't really had enough time away from him and not seeing him to really get over him if that makes sense. Do you know how hard it is to find a nice, decent, masculine (personal preference here), drug free, gay guy who doesn't wear women's clothes? It's not easy, trust me. Maybe I'm just asking for too much. I don't know.
So yeah, lately I seemed to have misplaced my Christmas spirit. I don't know if it has to do with the fact that I'm single again, because it shouldn't. I don't think I've had a bf during the holiday season until two years ago and part of last year. I'm sure part of it is just being alone, like really alone, this holiday season. The past few ones I've had someone, Junior when I lived with him for 7 years. Here it is just over two weeks until Christmas and I haven't put up any decorations. Hell, my heart just isn't in shopping for those "perfect presents." I find it real sad that when I get a text message on my phone so to listen to the meaning of Christmas from "Charlie Brown Christmas" to actually remember that Christmas isn't about getting the most expensive present or to out do each other on presents. I even find myself getting mad at the bell ringers when I go out shopping and try to go when there isn't any ringers. "Need knows no season" plastered where the ringers are just angers me. If that's true, then why are they only out during Christmas time? I feel bad thinking that stuff, but I do think it.
I don't know. Maybe something will happen between now and Christmas. Maybe I'll be visited by three spirits or something to jump start my holiday spirit. Maybe Mom's holiday baking will do something. I don't know, but I just hope my Christmas cheer comes before Christmas is here.
One good thing is that I have been seeing less and less of my ex which makes me very happy. It's not that I hate him or anything like that, it's that I haven't really had enough time away from him and not seeing him to really get over him if that makes sense. Do you know how hard it is to find a nice, decent, masculine (personal preference here), drug free, gay guy who doesn't wear women's clothes? It's not easy, trust me. Maybe I'm just asking for too much. I don't know.
So yeah, lately I seemed to have misplaced my Christmas spirit. I don't know if it has to do with the fact that I'm single again, because it shouldn't. I don't think I've had a bf during the holiday season until two years ago and part of last year. I'm sure part of it is just being alone, like really alone, this holiday season. The past few ones I've had someone, Junior when I lived with him for 7 years. Here it is just over two weeks until Christmas and I haven't put up any decorations. Hell, my heart just isn't in shopping for those "perfect presents." I find it real sad that when I get a text message on my phone so to listen to the meaning of Christmas from "Charlie Brown Christmas" to actually remember that Christmas isn't about getting the most expensive present or to out do each other on presents. I even find myself getting mad at the bell ringers when I go out shopping and try to go when there isn't any ringers. "Need knows no season" plastered where the ringers are just angers me. If that's true, then why are they only out during Christmas time? I feel bad thinking that stuff, but I do think it.
I don't know. Maybe something will happen between now and Christmas. Maybe I'll be visited by three spirits or something to jump start my holiday spirit. Maybe Mom's holiday baking will do something. I don't know, but I just hope my Christmas cheer comes before Christmas is here.