tough decisions
so the first almost unbearable wave of stress is basically over. i finished my photo project, not exactly sucessfully in my mind but thats another issue. i need to learn to just settle sometimes, especially when the stress from a single project is ruining a lot of other aspects in my life, completely un-related to school and/or art. its hard to seperate yourself from that though, especially when i'm so used to doing everything completely and almost obsessively until i'm happy with it. not a bad quality, SOMETIMES. moderation is a theme i need more of in my life. oh and all of that stress, to not even crit my work today becuase we ran out of time, so there is time for improvement if i wanted to. but i probably won't, assuming my weekend getaway goes as planned....
speaking of....VERMONT. this has been quite the issue in the past 2 weeks. it seems as though this trip has fallen apart, and been re-planned, at least 3 times. now its 2 days before i had planned to leave, on thursday the 9th, and the question is, am i still going? if i have to drive 7+ hrs by myself, then no. its just not a smart idea, theres so much that could go wrong. not to mention my parents would not have that either, and since i'm technically taking their car, its totally undertsandable. also, i tend to freak out a little when i get lost, and by myself i dont think i'd be able to handle it being in another state or in the middle of nowhere. anyway, i'm basically doing everything possible to be able to go, i need this trip so bad. all i want right now is to 1)see peanut 2)see dave 3)go SNOWBOARDING, where there is actually real quality snow 4)drink with my homegirl and reminice about the good times in quebec. thats what i picture this weekend being and the only thing i see wrong with it, is the chance that i might not go.
sure, theres a lot of ways that i'll be digging myself into another stressful week, but the way things have been going lately (not great), who wants to live a life of being unhappy? school is temporary, unhappiness can really just mess with you for a long time. and hey, if i have a stressful week next week because i'll be away all weekend, then at least i'll have great pictures to look at and memories to remember that will hopefully make me laugh and lighten my mood a little.
if i don't go, i will basically have NO weekend. friday and saturday are filled with ceramic 'requirements' which we were told about yesterday, and to those i basically say -whatever-. i better go away just so i dont have to do all that crap and ruin a perfectly-good-almost-work-free weekend.
i get to eat at home tomorrow with my parents which i'm looking forward to.
oh, the other weekend there was a
and at the end of the night, there was a dance party
speaking of....VERMONT. this has been quite the issue in the past 2 weeks. it seems as though this trip has fallen apart, and been re-planned, at least 3 times. now its 2 days before i had planned to leave, on thursday the 9th, and the question is, am i still going? if i have to drive 7+ hrs by myself, then no. its just not a smart idea, theres so much that could go wrong. not to mention my parents would not have that either, and since i'm technically taking their car, its totally undertsandable. also, i tend to freak out a little when i get lost, and by myself i dont think i'd be able to handle it being in another state or in the middle of nowhere. anyway, i'm basically doing everything possible to be able to go, i need this trip so bad. all i want right now is to 1)see peanut 2)see dave 3)go SNOWBOARDING, where there is actually real quality snow 4)drink with my homegirl and reminice about the good times in quebec. thats what i picture this weekend being and the only thing i see wrong with it, is the chance that i might not go.
sure, theres a lot of ways that i'll be digging myself into another stressful week, but the way things have been going lately (not great), who wants to live a life of being unhappy? school is temporary, unhappiness can really just mess with you for a long time. and hey, if i have a stressful week next week because i'll be away all weekend, then at least i'll have great pictures to look at and memories to remember that will hopefully make me laugh and lighten my mood a little.
if i don't go, i will basically have NO weekend. friday and saturday are filled with ceramic 'requirements' which we were told about yesterday, and to those i basically say -whatever-. i better go away just so i dont have to do all that crap and ruin a perfectly-good-almost-work-free weekend.
i get to eat at home tomorrow with my parents which i'm looking forward to.
oh, the other weekend there was a
and at the end of the night, there was a dance party