not a very good day...
My Thursday started with a call from my brother around 11am saying that his second cousin had committed suicide. I guess you would call him my step-cousin of some sort, as we're related through my step-dad, and I didn't see him very often, maybe once every few years, but I did see him on Christmas Eve, and things seemed to be going well for him. As suicide usually is, this was very unexpected, and of course it put a damper on my day, even though we weren't close. Out of respect for him, I've decided to overlook my views on suicide for the time being. I will just say it's a permanent fix to a temporary problem, and I don't see the point.
A few hours later, I took a nap. When I woke up, I had gotten my mind off the bad news. Then I went online and saw that a plane had crashed into the Hudson River. All those people were fine, but it was still a crazy event in an already bummed out day.
After a few hours, I was feeling fairly normal again, and I even called my grandma (who knows my step-dad's family) to let her know what had happened. Then I got a call from my mom. Earlier in the day, my sister's best friend's mom had died. That was even more unexpected and sad. I'd had conversations with her and camped out in her yard. More than anything, I feel bad for her daughter, my sister's best friend from high school. She's only 20. I can't even imagine that.
I think it's safe to say today sucked really bad. I've been in that numb state all day, and it's no fun at all.
My thoughts go out to both families. Expected losses of those closest to you are hard enough. The unexpected ones are even harder.
"On sleepless roads the sleepless go. May angels lead you in."
EDIT: I was just thinking about how four years ago, I lost my Grandpa and my dog in less than a month. Based on this, I've determined that, for the most part, January just sucks.
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