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I guess I'll make a post. I've been feeling more than a little lazy about it lately, but it's been awhile since I updated on my life. It's been chaos, and not all good chaos, but I really would rather not go into the bad and just focus on the good.
My job is looking more and more like I'm in. I'm doing really well, I'm above where they wanted me to be when they hired me, and they ended up letting a couple go, which is a bummer cause one was a guy I really liked there. But, apparently, he made too many errors. Understandable reason to let someone go when you're a home delivery pharmacy. Another friend of mine there ended up leaving after last week because she got to go back to college for free due to her job being outsourced. Pretty awesome opportunity! But it's still a bummer! But work is still looking up. I'm excited to get hired and start making even more money there. Then, hopefully, I can start working my way up to better and better pay. That would be very very nice. The place always has overtime, too, so if I need extra money, I have that option. That's always nice to know. It's dull, but it goes pretty quickly, especially with music, and I found out I can let my mind wander and still do a good job at it too, so that's nice. My mind wandering can keep me entertained for hours.
We're still working on getting stuff from the other house. So I'm going to finally just rent a U-Haul this weekend and we're going to get everything we possibly can over and it should be pretty much everything left. I'm even pondering trying to drive it myself, but I can't help be nervous about that. We'll see how it goes. I also want the rest of my stuff like my books. I need to look into buying some more bookshelves. I have so many books. There's so much stuff! It's hard to believe it all fit in that house.
CRAP! I was going to buy Midnight Never Come and forgot. Must do that tomorrow. I just can't find my copy. I know it's here, but I've hunted hard for it and I need to read it for the book club. So tomorrow, but buy book.
I've been thinking too much on my life lately, though. I know that's a strange thing to say, but I'm a person of very few regrets, and recently, aka yesterday, I kinda regretted not finishing up in teaching. THANK YOU CHRIS! =P Actually, I did, BUT! Today, I changed my mind. I was going to go back and read the post when I did it, cause I know it's so full of hope and goes into why I did it, but I didn't need to. I remember the feeling of relief when I changed majors and stepped out of Education. It was a bummer. I love love love the idea of being a teacher, I really do, but the field was changing me. The idea of having to sit aside and listen to co-workers spew whatever they wanted with no ability to change anything... too much to bear. I don't think I could do it. And it was changing me, and that's when I recognized that I needed to back off of it. I never thought that going into teaching would potentially change who I am as a person, but it was doing just that. I was becoming so much less me that it was kinda scary when I did back off. The sense of relief was astounding.
To bad it was immediately followed (almost literally... we're talking a matter of hours) by the pain of appendicitis.
I like who I am. I'd rather it not change.
You know, I was going to put a Youtube thing on the song I think fits me best, but it's not there! How rude is that?
So instead, I'm presenting lyrics.
Smoke fills the room,
with castles in the air-
I weave them all upon a silver loom,
look up if you dare-
I wonder where I'm going,
And where I belong,
What this plastic world can offer me-
The only truth I understand,
Is that within my song,
And in the smoke-filled pictures that I see-
Threads without any ends,
tangle in the chandelier-
Within the smoky corners are my friends,
and no one knows they're here-
I wonder where I'm going,
And where I belong,
What this plastic world can offer me-
The only truth I understand,
Is that within my song,
And in the smoke-filled pictures that I see-
Music floats to the ground,
dragons fly on the wing-
And in their dance, they whirl the whole room 'round,
above the heads of those to whom I sing-
I wonder where I'm going,
And where I belong,
What this plastic world can offer me-
The only truth I understand,
Is that within my song,
And in the smoke-filled pictures that I see-
Smoke fills the room,
with castles in the air-
I weave them all upon a silver loom,
look up if you dare-
And someone honored me by picking Garth Brooks' "The Change" to represent me too, which is a big honor.
So I will do my best to live up to both of those songs, and I'll stay who I am. If I feel myself changing, it's time to get back on track. There are some parts of my being I'd rather never change. That's just the way it is.
Night!
My job is looking more and more like I'm in. I'm doing really well, I'm above where they wanted me to be when they hired me, and they ended up letting a couple go, which is a bummer cause one was a guy I really liked there. But, apparently, he made too many errors. Understandable reason to let someone go when you're a home delivery pharmacy. Another friend of mine there ended up leaving after last week because she got to go back to college for free due to her job being outsourced. Pretty awesome opportunity! But it's still a bummer! But work is still looking up. I'm excited to get hired and start making even more money there. Then, hopefully, I can start working my way up to better and better pay. That would be very very nice. The place always has overtime, too, so if I need extra money, I have that option. That's always nice to know. It's dull, but it goes pretty quickly, especially with music, and I found out I can let my mind wander and still do a good job at it too, so that's nice. My mind wandering can keep me entertained for hours.
We're still working on getting stuff from the other house. So I'm going to finally just rent a U-Haul this weekend and we're going to get everything we possibly can over and it should be pretty much everything left. I'm even pondering trying to drive it myself, but I can't help be nervous about that. We'll see how it goes. I also want the rest of my stuff like my books. I need to look into buying some more bookshelves. I have so many books. There's so much stuff! It's hard to believe it all fit in that house.
CRAP! I was going to buy Midnight Never Come and forgot. Must do that tomorrow. I just can't find my copy. I know it's here, but I've hunted hard for it and I need to read it for the book club. So tomorrow, but buy book.
I've been thinking too much on my life lately, though. I know that's a strange thing to say, but I'm a person of very few regrets, and recently, aka yesterday, I kinda regretted not finishing up in teaching. THANK YOU CHRIS! =P Actually, I did, BUT! Today, I changed my mind. I was going to go back and read the post when I did it, cause I know it's so full of hope and goes into why I did it, but I didn't need to. I remember the feeling of relief when I changed majors and stepped out of Education. It was a bummer. I love love love the idea of being a teacher, I really do, but the field was changing me. The idea of having to sit aside and listen to co-workers spew whatever they wanted with no ability to change anything... too much to bear. I don't think I could do it. And it was changing me, and that's when I recognized that I needed to back off of it. I never thought that going into teaching would potentially change who I am as a person, but it was doing just that. I was becoming so much less me that it was kinda scary when I did back off. The sense of relief was astounding.
To bad it was immediately followed (almost literally... we're talking a matter of hours) by the pain of appendicitis.
I like who I am. I'd rather it not change.
You know, I was going to put a Youtube thing on the song I think fits me best, but it's not there! How rude is that?
So instead, I'm presenting lyrics.
Smoke fills the room,
with castles in the air-
I weave them all upon a silver loom,
look up if you dare-
I wonder where I'm going,
And where I belong,
What this plastic world can offer me-
The only truth I understand,
Is that within my song,
And in the smoke-filled pictures that I see-
Threads without any ends,
tangle in the chandelier-
Within the smoky corners are my friends,
and no one knows they're here-
I wonder where I'm going,
And where I belong,
What this plastic world can offer me-
The only truth I understand,
Is that within my song,
And in the smoke-filled pictures that I see-
Music floats to the ground,
dragons fly on the wing-
And in their dance, they whirl the whole room 'round,
above the heads of those to whom I sing-
I wonder where I'm going,
And where I belong,
What this plastic world can offer me-
The only truth I understand,
Is that within my song,
And in the smoke-filled pictures that I see-
Smoke fills the room,
with castles in the air-
I weave them all upon a silver loom,
look up if you dare-
And someone honored me by picking Garth Brooks' "The Change" to represent me too, which is a big honor.
So I will do my best to live up to both of those songs, and I'll stay who I am. If I feel myself changing, it's time to get back on track. There are some parts of my being I'd rather never change. That's just the way it is.
Night!