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Ok so lets see....well last night i found out that darlene had been lying to me about a couple things for a really long time. Lets see...the first.. she lied to me about the number of people she's had sex with.. which leads me to number 2..the day before i took her out on valentines day, she had sex with some guy..and then she had sex with him 2 times after that day..and she also had sex with some guy a couple weeks after we started dating.. she's lied to me for months and months.. she told me that the most she had done with a guy was kiss while we were dating.. now i mean all of this stuff happened before we were "officially" together...but i mean she's lied to me about it ever since then so i mean there's no excuse for that..
when i found out i cant even begin to describe how i felt.. it was wierd like i dont think ive ever felt before.. my heart just felt empty..i didnt cry..which surprises the hell out of me.. i think sounded more mad than sad which is a big change for me in those situations..i knew i was mad...i knew i felt betrayed..but in my heart it was just empty..
now females always complain about finding a good guy and how hard it is to find one that will treat them good and everything..but is it any wonder?? if theres one thing ive learned over the years..its that being a nice guy never pays off..but i guess maybe im used to it now...maybe thats why i didnt feel anything.....she wont be the first girl to break my heart...maybe now its just adding another one to the list..
am i over exaggerating?? am i being melodramatic?? or am i justified in my reaction??
should i just let it go being that it is so far in the past??
the things she told me last night...she sounded sincere...and although she thinks i dont...i do believe what she says.. i still love her more than anything...
anyone have any helpful advice or comments or anything?? anyone been in a similar situation??
when i found out i cant even begin to describe how i felt.. it was wierd like i dont think ive ever felt before.. my heart just felt empty..i didnt cry..which surprises the hell out of me.. i think sounded more mad than sad which is a big change for me in those situations..i knew i was mad...i knew i felt betrayed..but in my heart it was just empty..
now females always complain about finding a good guy and how hard it is to find one that will treat them good and everything..but is it any wonder?? if theres one thing ive learned over the years..its that being a nice guy never pays off..but i guess maybe im used to it now...maybe thats why i didnt feel anything.....she wont be the first girl to break my heart...maybe now its just adding another one to the list..
am i over exaggerating?? am i being melodramatic?? or am i justified in my reaction??
should i just let it go being that it is so far in the past??
the things she told me last night...she sounded sincere...and although she thinks i dont...i do believe what she says.. i still love her more than anything...
anyone have any helpful advice or comments or anything?? anyone been in a similar situation??