I'm Ashley, BIG, FAT, and BEAUTIFUL
No matter how much I love school, no matter how much I love living with no one, I kinda miss having a living...anything in my place. Call me odd, but I need something to talk to that is not my walls. This is why I am really happy that I am actually going home...I miss my puppy...aka Baron. I miss his excitement of when I come home no matter if I have been gone for a few mintues of a few days. Then I actually miss my little sister. Is that at all bad? I think its just because I'm just so lonely! Hey, If anyone needs an escape and can get their ass out here, I am willing to share my place for a few days. I really miss most of you all.
On las Friday, I had walked up to Joes to relive the memories that I had there and for some gods forsaken reason, I felt out of place. Maybe it had to do with not actually graduating there or just because it had been over a year since I actually had a class there, but I felt like an outsider and for the first time I did not wish to be there. I was happy that I had Graduated from HSA and that I was going to Akron. Maybe I was still hung over or it is just all apart with growing up. I don't know and honestly I don't care. I did what I set out to do when I entered Joes, I graduated, and I am on my way to getting a college degree and move ahead in this world. I have a fell set of parents that are behind me in what ever I do. An amazing girl in my life, that I know will be there for the best and worst of me. I am truly happy. I feel like there can be nothing that will go wrong.
I know that at some point my high feeling will go down and hit rock bottom, but at the moment, I am high and happy. This is such a surreal feeling to me. Happiness. I don't know. Oh well.
I had my audition yesterday for the Fifth Of July and I think that I have a hell of a chance to get it. The woman said that she wanted an all African American Cast. But she said that I look pretty good for one of the parts, and I did really good. So pray and hope that I get a part...even if it is a small part it will make me happy. Then I have found that I can get Money for working the Constume Dept. So KICK ASS! And the chick who runs it, she seems real cool, so I think that I am set for the next few years...at least until I get the hell out of this fucking state. I'm more then ready to leave. At least I think that I am. A part of me knows that in realitly that I would never make it there. At least not in this part of my life. Oh well. Well see by the end of this year.
Now I feel a cold coming on, so I'm going to chill out and sleep until my next class...that sounds so odd.
loves to all
ps- updating here is another odd feeling to me...but i kinda like it
On las Friday, I had walked up to Joes to relive the memories that I had there and for some gods forsaken reason, I felt out of place. Maybe it had to do with not actually graduating there or just because it had been over a year since I actually had a class there, but I felt like an outsider and for the first time I did not wish to be there. I was happy that I had Graduated from HSA and that I was going to Akron. Maybe I was still hung over or it is just all apart with growing up. I don't know and honestly I don't care. I did what I set out to do when I entered Joes, I graduated, and I am on my way to getting a college degree and move ahead in this world. I have a fell set of parents that are behind me in what ever I do. An amazing girl in my life, that I know will be there for the best and worst of me. I am truly happy. I feel like there can be nothing that will go wrong.
I know that at some point my high feeling will go down and hit rock bottom, but at the moment, I am high and happy. This is such a surreal feeling to me. Happiness. I don't know. Oh well.
I had my audition yesterday for the Fifth Of July and I think that I have a hell of a chance to get it. The woman said that she wanted an all African American Cast. But she said that I look pretty good for one of the parts, and I did really good. So pray and hope that I get a part...even if it is a small part it will make me happy. Then I have found that I can get Money for working the Constume Dept. So KICK ASS! And the chick who runs it, she seems real cool, so I think that I am set for the next few years...at least until I get the hell out of this fucking state. I'm more then ready to leave. At least I think that I am. A part of me knows that in realitly that I would never make it there. At least not in this part of my life. Oh well. Well see by the end of this year.
Now I feel a cold coming on, so I'm going to chill out and sleep until my next class...that sounds so odd.
loves to all
ps- updating here is another odd feeling to me...but i kinda like it