The Mending Wall
I should really be leaving you alone. but, this is different. you could tell anyone else in the world to leave you alone, but i can never seem to accept that as an option. my love for you is awfully intense. filled with days and days of being absorbed by your very voice, my growing love for you has been unmoved, unaffected by this silly epidemic we're dealing with. we are dealing with it. come back to me my darling. these fights and circumstances, frivolous brick by frivolous brick, piled up. they are just stepping stones to what we can really become all in good time my love. the skepticism you're displaying of our love daunts me in everyway, but there is no way in hell i will give up on us my love, because this is my life. happiness is what i will chase after my love. i must and will chase after you because that is my decision, and what i was made to do. it will take time, i understand that completely. this trivial fight must end sooner or later, your heart will settle and you will find me once again. pardon my impuissance once again. i will be waiting. but don't be mistaken by my kindness and convinience that i am to be used whenever is necessary. i need you just as much as you need me at those times. my heart is broken. please love me like you once did in a quiet movie theater row, or on your living room couch, or in the backseat of your van, or the alley of a store complex, over the phone, or through an email... love me again, for i've already decided from day one to love you all the same no matter where your heart leads you. you know this as plain as a blank entry. just because i'm posted here for good, doesn't necessarily mean you get to be leaving at every chance. just stay. stay true to our love. i know you hurt. i know how much you hurt. my heart has been broken all too many times and i apologize for having my hand in the occurences of your pain. i know it hurts my darling. i am your comfort. it is not easy to forget my mistakes, nor am i asking you to forget it... "forgive and forget" what asshole though of that saying? you know?forgiving me doesn't mean you have to do the impossible and erase my mistakes from our storyline. forgiving me is a decision all so pure as love. their integration coincides to paint our bigger picture. you and me. our ups and downs have constructed our strength from day one, that being said, that strength is comprised of every single problem we get through. every other flaw we accept of one another makes us stronger. I'd like to think of us as one of the few couples who stay true to the real meaning of a promise. i'd like to think of us. i remember. our happiness and troubles are currently at equilibrium. i am determined to collect the pay-off we promised to obtain after it's completion. i promised you this.