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i think for everyone life is hard, but i dunno with me it seems to be a little bit different. maybe its taboo to talk about it but i dont care. it seems the guys i chill with lately, all my boys, they seem the be the coolest guys i have chilled with prolly since my middle school days. and it makes me really really happy that i have found a sense of family in all of them. Eric, Mike, Dave, Jeremy, John, Felipe, Dex, I mean yea I have many other close ass friends, Ryan from middle school who has been like my brother for over 10 years, but im focused on what we call The Crew. You know its funny that everyone of us look great, but I think since meeting a few of them it makes me wonder about myself. I wonder if this blog has any point lol oh well I just wanna ramble lol
It seems that I look at myself lately and wonder what is wrong with me. I mean to think that I havent tried to keep fit, to try and make myself look better, be healthier. It really makes me feel shitty. But about a month and a half ago I actually sat with someone that would help me and its funny cause I have a personal trainer ive had friends tell me what to do, working out with lee and john and everyone back in the day. And Eric has really really pushed me to a level I havent felt since high school. And I sometimes think of why was it that moment at IHOP in miami where I realized what a piece of shit I was. I mean I look at mike’s quote saying A great body is a gift to myself and I wonder why don’t I try. Dex comes back from the army weighing from over 200 to 185. It seemed everyone had their self in check but me.
Oh I think I realized why I wrote this blog. Two things, one to thank all of my boys for being there for me 100% either fights, health or just hanging out. U guys are the best! And also that I am more focused than ever and I will prove to everyone and myself that I am indeed The great looking badass I used to be.
It seems that I look at myself lately and wonder what is wrong with me. I mean to think that I havent tried to keep fit, to try and make myself look better, be healthier. It really makes me feel shitty. But about a month and a half ago I actually sat with someone that would help me and its funny cause I have a personal trainer ive had friends tell me what to do, working out with lee and john and everyone back in the day. And Eric has really really pushed me to a level I havent felt since high school. And I sometimes think of why was it that moment at IHOP in miami where I realized what a piece of shit I was. I mean I look at mike’s quote saying A great body is a gift to myself and I wonder why don’t I try. Dex comes back from the army weighing from over 200 to 185. It seemed everyone had their self in check but me.
Oh I think I realized why I wrote this blog. Two things, one to thank all of my boys for being there for me 100% either fights, health or just hanging out. U guys are the best! And also that I am more focused than ever and I will prove to everyone and myself that I am indeed The great looking badass I used to be.