hmm..
so..its been a while again..i really need to start paying more attention to my livejournal ive decided....and i really need to start spending some time by myself...i was thinking about this when i was on my way home from work today...
i really hate being alone..i hate being lonely maybe...
ive also been thinkin about quitting drinking...and doin drugs....for my health..ive been takin anti depressants again..for about a month now....and im actually gettin some sort of positive thinkin goin on..and things arent stressin me out so fast....but your not suppose to drink with the pills..which has become a big thing for me in the past few weeks..mostly because ryan has been puttin alot of pressure on me to do better for myself..be healthier...and i really have realized...once and for all that i need to set goals..and gte out of this rut...of alcohol and drugs....
they say that you can quit things like this..when you want to do it for yourself..i know i have to do it for myself...but wanting to stop is a different story..i mean...its the lifestyle right now....being young..partying....and having to say no...from now on..its goin to be pretty hard...cause i havent stopped since that first sip of colt 45 in the glendale field.
i really hate being alone..i hate being lonely maybe...
ive also been thinkin about quitting drinking...and doin drugs....for my health..ive been takin anti depressants again..for about a month now....and im actually gettin some sort of positive thinkin goin on..and things arent stressin me out so fast....but your not suppose to drink with the pills..which has become a big thing for me in the past few weeks..mostly because ryan has been puttin alot of pressure on me to do better for myself..be healthier...and i really have realized...once and for all that i need to set goals..and gte out of this rut...of alcohol and drugs....
they say that you can quit things like this..when you want to do it for yourself..i know i have to do it for myself...but wanting to stop is a different story..i mean...its the lifestyle right now....being young..partying....and having to say no...from now on..its goin to be pretty hard...cause i havent stopped since that first sip of colt 45 in the glendale field.