#44
another birthday tomorrow.
right now there is so much wealth in my life. everything is flourishing and even the things that were not ideal in my preconceived notions are changing me, being changed by me, so that I take what I can from them and it is more than I expect in this moment. more than I ever expected has happened this semester.. the entirely new group of friends and with them, a far greater understanding of who I am and the kinds of activities that ultimately make me happy, travelling to so many cities in the last month and having travel be a normal but wonderful part of life, the group of friends from last semester whom I am still very much with (and dating one of them, now), and my two favorite international students who are both incredibly smart and funny and whom I can be as much myself as I want to in English. the hopping between languages is occasionally a problem but much less, so much less, since i made the friends who speak to different parts of me and i give all of them all the attention i can give. roommate relations are perfect. summer plans..... this is a great worry but also full of too-much rather than too-little; i think that apple will offer me an internship, but i also have plans for the Appalachian trail with one of my best friends from college and i need to figure this out after collecting final information.
tomorrow the plan is to have lunch with one group and then climb a mountain at night with another. yb is coming to both which makes me happy.
right now there is so much wealth in my life. everything is flourishing and even the things that were not ideal in my preconceived notions are changing me, being changed by me, so that I take what I can from them and it is more than I expect in this moment. more than I ever expected has happened this semester.. the entirely new group of friends and with them, a far greater understanding of who I am and the kinds of activities that ultimately make me happy, travelling to so many cities in the last month and having travel be a normal but wonderful part of life, the group of friends from last semester whom I am still very much with (and dating one of them, now), and my two favorite international students who are both incredibly smart and funny and whom I can be as much myself as I want to in English. the hopping between languages is occasionally a problem but much less, so much less, since i made the friends who speak to different parts of me and i give all of them all the attention i can give. roommate relations are perfect. summer plans..... this is a great worry but also full of too-much rather than too-little; i think that apple will offer me an internship, but i also have plans for the Appalachian trail with one of my best friends from college and i need to figure this out after collecting final information.
tomorrow the plan is to have lunch with one group and then climb a mountain at night with another. yb is coming to both which makes me happy.