I Need Peace
I swear last night was not my night at all, though I think I got things straightened out. I wound up getting in an argument with a longtime penpal - it hurt like hell to fight with her since she is just like a sister to me. It about tore my heart out - and then I wound up in an argument with Chris too. We wound up both saying things we shouldn't have - and I'm still praying he isn't mad at me though he was acting normal when we signed off. Between those two fights and then going into a panic attack/stroke/seizure all at the same time before I went to bed, I wound up crying myself to sleep from being so upset about things and so scared.
Today hasn't been much better. Mom and Dad both seem to be in bad moods - and as usual, I have to be the referree, which also entails that I will be the one they both yell at the most. I finally couldn't take another minute and fled to my room after supper. I signed online and pretty much freaked out when Chris didn't sign on - luckily I got a text from him saying he had decided to eat supper. He has a meeting later, so I won't get to talk to him much tonight. The good news is I get to see him this weekend. I just wish sometimes that things could just go peacefully for just one single day. Stupid wish, huh? Well, enough for now - Bye!
Today hasn't been much better. Mom and Dad both seem to be in bad moods - and as usual, I have to be the referree, which also entails that I will be the one they both yell at the most. I finally couldn't take another minute and fled to my room after supper. I signed online and pretty much freaked out when Chris didn't sign on - luckily I got a text from him saying he had decided to eat supper. He has a meeting later, so I won't get to talk to him much tonight. The good news is I get to see him this weekend. I just wish sometimes that things could just go peacefully for just one single day. Stupid wish, huh? Well, enough for now - Bye!