Change
I'm stepping out of my shell.
But my walls are up.
The last two weeks have been a revelation. But what have they revealed? That I can still be attracted to girls and guys? Maybe. But there is something else going on. My libido's been in high gear and I'm not convinced it's hormonal. My fear is that I'm over compensating. Going through the motions because there's nothing else for me right now. Almost as if I'm trying to get caught up.
Maybe I'll bump into someone who will put a dent in my life. I hope. And I hope it's the same kind of dent.
And 10 years from now I'll be thinking back on all this. Wondering how the strings that connect us stretched so thin. And I'll smile.
......
My head use to be full of all these things I wanted to say. But now it's empty; there are no more words.
But my walls are up.
The last two weeks have been a revelation. But what have they revealed? That I can still be attracted to girls and guys? Maybe. But there is something else going on. My libido's been in high gear and I'm not convinced it's hormonal. My fear is that I'm over compensating. Going through the motions because there's nothing else for me right now. Almost as if I'm trying to get caught up.
Maybe I'll bump into someone who will put a dent in my life. I hope. And I hope it's the same kind of dent.
And 10 years from now I'll be thinking back on all this. Wondering how the strings that connect us stretched so thin. And I'll smile.
......
My head use to be full of all these things I wanted to say. But now it's empty; there are no more words.