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So, just because why not I'll tell the Emily story. You may remember that when we broke up I felt very good about things because it felt very mutual, and didn't seem like either of us had been hurt at all. I don't know if this story means I was wrong or just means she's more fucked up than I was able to tell when we were together. But anyways. I'd heard she'd been just kind of generally talking shit about me at work, just things about me being a shitty boyfriend, her being dumb for having dated me in the first place, etc. And honestly, it didn't bother me much. We didn't really talk much anymore and I was happy with that, and most people knew that I wasn't happy in the relationship either so I just didn't think it was a big deal. Then I found out that she'd told at least one person that I used her for sex and treated her like a whore.
That is a big deal. Mostly because it's completely not true--we only had sex 3 times, and only one of those times was started by me. That's less than once a month. It's just an absurd allegation to make. Clearly a lie. So I sent her a message saying that I knew she had said it, that she knew it was a lie, and that she should stop because it might be damaging my reputation. She never responded, but at this point she's been transferred to another store and there's a good chance I'll never have to see her again. So whatever.
And apparently I haven't learned my lesson about dating girls I work with cause I'm pretty sure I'm going to ask another one out, probably sunday. This is what I posted about last time. After making that post and telling one person, everyone in the world knows, so in that sense things have went exactly in the way I didn't want them to. And by 'pretty sure' I mean there's probably at best a 50% chance I'll work up the balls, and a good shot that I'll convince myself somehow that I should wait a couple days. It will happen eventually. I'm bad at things like this. But all you assholes putting pressure on me are not helping!
That said, finally, I stand by my last entry. I'm just going to keep doing what I'm doing and really hope I can avoid being an asshole to anyone cause I really really don't want to be.
That is a big deal. Mostly because it's completely not true--we only had sex 3 times, and only one of those times was started by me. That's less than once a month. It's just an absurd allegation to make. Clearly a lie. So I sent her a message saying that I knew she had said it, that she knew it was a lie, and that she should stop because it might be damaging my reputation. She never responded, but at this point she's been transferred to another store and there's a good chance I'll never have to see her again. So whatever.
And apparently I haven't learned my lesson about dating girls I work with cause I'm pretty sure I'm going to ask another one out, probably sunday. This is what I posted about last time. After making that post and telling one person, everyone in the world knows, so in that sense things have went exactly in the way I didn't want them to. And by 'pretty sure' I mean there's probably at best a 50% chance I'll work up the balls, and a good shot that I'll convince myself somehow that I should wait a couple days. It will happen eventually. I'm bad at things like this. But all you assholes putting pressure on me are not helping!
That said, finally, I stand by my last entry. I'm just going to keep doing what I'm doing and really hope I can avoid being an asshole to anyone cause I really really don't want to be.