The Beginning of Good Things...
Ok so because this turned out to be so long I figured I would LJ-Cut it so that you all don't have to read if you don't want to...First off though cause someone needs to read this. This is a public Apology to Meryl, I am sorry I was such an idiot with a Stick up my Bum...I hope you find it to forgive me, I'll give you a more specific apology when I call you later...but for now everyone needs to see it...
Ok so I have started my weekend off great. First off I didn't have to work on thurs night like I should have, because I went over my 40 hrs on Wed night. So that left yesterday wide open and after my meeting with Danny for our weekly Jr High Creative Team meeting, it was off to Jupiter house to meet up with a very sweet young lady that I am getting to know. So let me back up a bit here first, before we get on with all that.
I have been really struggling alot lately with getting my feet on the ground and after much looking in on my life, things are looking up. I was so stressed and was making myself miserable to be honest. I took last week in strides and just really looked inside of myself and decided that I need to have priorities in my life, realized that I just couldn't do everything that I wanted to and actually survived. Basically since I have gotten back from India and Cali I have been just overwhelmed within my life. This past week or two I have really set it up and decided that some things really need to change. First will be the overnight job, Its just too much and I can't really function doing the overnights, I'm just not nocturnal what can I say. And as my aunt said to me yesterday, "you have a college degree you shouldn't be stocking overnights anyway, you should be aiming higher." Wow that made me feel good, she believes in me, and I guess its time I believed in myself a little more too. I had been kinda all poor me lately and had really shut off from people. So after that I applied to ITeachTexas.com and God willing I will be a teacher in the fall. So I will be actually using my degree. So yay for that.
Next thing to go was this stick that had apparently gotten lodged up my bum over the last few months, and a return to reality was in line. I realized over the last few weeks that I had been a really bad friend, and I was feeling lonely for the reason that I was turning into my dad in someways and was just worrying about myself and not making time for people, not that the overnight job didn't help with this, but thats only been the last two weeks. And the last two weeks I have really focused on my friends and my social life a bit which had become non-existant since I took on so much stuff, unpaid. Not that I don't really enjoy doing the God's work, and helping out with things, but at the same time we are not meant to be alone doing life. and yeah while I wasn't completely alone, I was too wrapped up in getting everyone's approval that I had forgotten about valuing myself and my time and those that already mean the world to me. I was trying to eliminate myself by shutting myself off to everyone who meant anything to me, in my past. The sad thing is is that it didn't have to be that way. so for those of you that i was doing this to I am sorry, I will try to be a better friend. thanks for dealing with me.
Next thing for a good start to a great weekend. i went by Target today to get my check and it was $150 more than I was expecting, talk about nice. Its gonna be hard leaving there cause I was enjoying the people I worked with, but it will be better for me to go focus on something that i actually wanna do...so its back to subbing. which will be good for preparing for my future. I am on my way to becoming a teacher thats for sure, and then with some luck with getting into Grad School i will hopefully become a School Counselor. So if you are the praying type keep that process in your prayers for me.
Ok so more on that good beginning, ok so back to hanging out yesterday, I have been talking with a sweet young lady since about Christmas and well yesterday we finally got to hang out and actually talk face-to-face. We met up at Jupiter as i said and got to walk around talking for about an hour before she had to be back on Campus for her on-call. It was nice talking with her, then I was talking with her online about wanting to watch Survivor the new season started last night, by the way it looks like it will be a good one, they are doing this thing where they banish a person to a solitary confined Island for a day or so after losing a competition. so it will make for some interesting stuff later on in the show. Anyway got sidetracked, she agreed to watching it with me in her dorm, cause I don't have cable and didn't want to sit at the Church on the square all by myself watching it. So after hanging out with a couple other friends, I went over to her place and we watched the show and afterwards talked for 3+hrs and Blue October's 18th Floor Balcony popped in my head, a specific part of the song, "...We talked about Moms and Dads, about family pasts, getting to know where we came from, our hearts where on display for all to see, I can't believe this is happening to me..." And we are on the same page right now which is cool, we are on the page of exactly what the lyrics say, getting to know one another and just feeling it out, neither of us really wanna jump into anything, without feeling it out first, which is a really good thing. I don't want to sound too into her right now, so I will end talking about it right now, and just say its nice actually getting to know someone in the right ways, without just jumping into something. It will be good to actually know someone before making a decision about something more than that. I will be honest I hope that something does come of it, but if not at least I have developed a good friendship. Well tomorrow night we are going to go to see SouthFM, so here's my shameless Plug...
SouthFM is playing at Curtain Club tomorrow night, Sat Feb 4th, so come out and join us, it's their first show in 2 months and their last for a while. Hope to see you all out there.
Ok shameless plug over, onto the next part of the beginning of what looks to be a good weekend. Today I went to pick up my check and when i got it, it was $150 more than i was expecting, so that alone would have made my day, but it gets better. After getting the check my friend Cat and I were on our way out to go ride horses in Decatur, I had a video to shoot for a guy in Hospice, I learned alot about horses, especially horses as a Counseling tool, pretty cool stuff there if you ask me. And after shooting the video, this lady named Jan that I know let us get on two of her horses and ride them around for an hour. It was so much fun, I was galloping on the horse, which was so liberating and so scary at the same time, it was a great feeling. I LOVE HORSES now, and i really want one someday. Jan told me in the past that I am welcome out there anytime to ride, she told me that weekends and evenings are best for coming out, as long as I give her a call I can come out and ride with them. So yay thats just like the coolest offer I have ever gotten, so I have decided that I will probly go ride every few weekends and learn how to take care of a horse over the next few months, and volunteer my services to her on days that I am out, like help clean up the stables and groom the horses when i go out there, and take out a friend with me every once in awhile to go ride too and get them into horses, so if you want to go ride sometime let me know. I don't want to bring any more than one person at a time though, so you may have to take numbers. But it was so cool...anyway this was the reason for this long post originally, but I figured i should let you all know what else is going on with me.
I took some pics today and want to share them with you all...so here goes...
This is a one day old baby horse, It was so cute, I had never been that close to a newborn baby horse...everyone say Awwww!
This was Cat with Lady, She had so much fun missing class this afternoon, but can you blame her for skipping I mean come on she got to go horseback riding!
Another of Cat and Lady, she was so giddy to get to do this, it was funny.
http://img61.imageshack.us/img61/358/charlie3ik.jpg
Say Hello to Charlie, he is only 2 yrs old and a pretty cool horse, this was only the second day anyone had ridden him, obviously I wasn't the one riding him...Nope I spent my time on this girl....
This is Lacy, she was a World Champion Barrel racing horse back in her younger days, she is 20 human years old.
Don't worry I did have a picture of me and Lacy taken, wish I had gotten one of me on her, but this is still pretty cool...it was so fun.
I just really liked this pic, its the tack room and it came out looking pretty cool.
Ok so I have started my weekend off great. First off I didn't have to work on thurs night like I should have, because I went over my 40 hrs on Wed night. So that left yesterday wide open and after my meeting with Danny for our weekly Jr High Creative Team meeting, it was off to Jupiter house to meet up with a very sweet young lady that I am getting to know. So let me back up a bit here first, before we get on with all that.
I have been really struggling alot lately with getting my feet on the ground and after much looking in on my life, things are looking up. I was so stressed and was making myself miserable to be honest. I took last week in strides and just really looked inside of myself and decided that I need to have priorities in my life, realized that I just couldn't do everything that I wanted to and actually survived. Basically since I have gotten back from India and Cali I have been just overwhelmed within my life. This past week or two I have really set it up and decided that some things really need to change. First will be the overnight job, Its just too much and I can't really function doing the overnights, I'm just not nocturnal what can I say. And as my aunt said to me yesterday, "you have a college degree you shouldn't be stocking overnights anyway, you should be aiming higher." Wow that made me feel good, she believes in me, and I guess its time I believed in myself a little more too. I had been kinda all poor me lately and had really shut off from people. So after that I applied to ITeachTexas.com and God willing I will be a teacher in the fall. So I will be actually using my degree. So yay for that.
Next thing to go was this stick that had apparently gotten lodged up my bum over the last few months, and a return to reality was in line. I realized over the last few weeks that I had been a really bad friend, and I was feeling lonely for the reason that I was turning into my dad in someways and was just worrying about myself and not making time for people, not that the overnight job didn't help with this, but thats only been the last two weeks. And the last two weeks I have really focused on my friends and my social life a bit which had become non-existant since I took on so much stuff, unpaid. Not that I don't really enjoy doing the God's work, and helping out with things, but at the same time we are not meant to be alone doing life. and yeah while I wasn't completely alone, I was too wrapped up in getting everyone's approval that I had forgotten about valuing myself and my time and those that already mean the world to me. I was trying to eliminate myself by shutting myself off to everyone who meant anything to me, in my past. The sad thing is is that it didn't have to be that way. so for those of you that i was doing this to I am sorry, I will try to be a better friend. thanks for dealing with me.
Next thing for a good start to a great weekend. i went by Target today to get my check and it was $150 more than I was expecting, talk about nice. Its gonna be hard leaving there cause I was enjoying the people I worked with, but it will be better for me to go focus on something that i actually wanna do...so its back to subbing. which will be good for preparing for my future. I am on my way to becoming a teacher thats for sure, and then with some luck with getting into Grad School i will hopefully become a School Counselor. So if you are the praying type keep that process in your prayers for me.
Ok so more on that good beginning, ok so back to hanging out yesterday, I have been talking with a sweet young lady since about Christmas and well yesterday we finally got to hang out and actually talk face-to-face. We met up at Jupiter as i said and got to walk around talking for about an hour before she had to be back on Campus for her on-call. It was nice talking with her, then I was talking with her online about wanting to watch Survivor the new season started last night, by the way it looks like it will be a good one, they are doing this thing where they banish a person to a solitary confined Island for a day or so after losing a competition. so it will make for some interesting stuff later on in the show. Anyway got sidetracked, she agreed to watching it with me in her dorm, cause I don't have cable and didn't want to sit at the Church on the square all by myself watching it. So after hanging out with a couple other friends, I went over to her place and we watched the show and afterwards talked for 3+hrs and Blue October's 18th Floor Balcony popped in my head, a specific part of the song, "...We talked about Moms and Dads, about family pasts, getting to know where we came from, our hearts where on display for all to see, I can't believe this is happening to me..." And we are on the same page right now which is cool, we are on the page of exactly what the lyrics say, getting to know one another and just feeling it out, neither of us really wanna jump into anything, without feeling it out first, which is a really good thing. I don't want to sound too into her right now, so I will end talking about it right now, and just say its nice actually getting to know someone in the right ways, without just jumping into something. It will be good to actually know someone before making a decision about something more than that. I will be honest I hope that something does come of it, but if not at least I have developed a good friendship. Well tomorrow night we are going to go to see SouthFM, so here's my shameless Plug...
SouthFM is playing at Curtain Club tomorrow night, Sat Feb 4th, so come out and join us, it's their first show in 2 months and their last for a while. Hope to see you all out there.
Ok shameless plug over, onto the next part of the beginning of what looks to be a good weekend. Today I went to pick up my check and when i got it, it was $150 more than i was expecting, so that alone would have made my day, but it gets better. After getting the check my friend Cat and I were on our way out to go ride horses in Decatur, I had a video to shoot for a guy in Hospice, I learned alot about horses, especially horses as a Counseling tool, pretty cool stuff there if you ask me. And after shooting the video, this lady named Jan that I know let us get on two of her horses and ride them around for an hour. It was so much fun, I was galloping on the horse, which was so liberating and so scary at the same time, it was a great feeling. I LOVE HORSES now, and i really want one someday. Jan told me in the past that I am welcome out there anytime to ride, she told me that weekends and evenings are best for coming out, as long as I give her a call I can come out and ride with them. So yay thats just like the coolest offer I have ever gotten, so I have decided that I will probly go ride every few weekends and learn how to take care of a horse over the next few months, and volunteer my services to her on days that I am out, like help clean up the stables and groom the horses when i go out there, and take out a friend with me every once in awhile to go ride too and get them into horses, so if you want to go ride sometime let me know. I don't want to bring any more than one person at a time though, so you may have to take numbers. But it was so cool...anyway this was the reason for this long post originally, but I figured i should let you all know what else is going on with me.
I took some pics today and want to share them with you all...so here goes...
This is a one day old baby horse, It was so cute, I had never been that close to a newborn baby horse...everyone say Awwww!
This was Cat with Lady, She had so much fun missing class this afternoon, but can you blame her for skipping I mean come on she got to go horseback riding!
Another of Cat and Lady, she was so giddy to get to do this, it was funny.
http://img61.imageshack.us/img61/358/charlie3ik.jpg
Say Hello to Charlie, he is only 2 yrs old and a pretty cool horse, this was only the second day anyone had ridden him, obviously I wasn't the one riding him...Nope I spent my time on this girl....
This is Lacy, she was a World Champion Barrel racing horse back in her younger days, she is 20 human years old.
Don't worry I did have a picture of me and Lacy taken, wish I had gotten one of me on her, but this is still pretty cool...it was so fun.
I just really liked this pic, its the tack room and it came out looking pretty cool.