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Back on Earth, folks. Feels good here. Work and a few reassuring messages from Sam and my housemates and having a good time with Garrick helped things out.
My housemates really are amazing, though. After driving over to Garrick and Amy's to pick up the former and six cats, I made chocolate chip cookies. I got distracted mid-way through when Emmie and Jane (who just moved in, like, five blocks from us) showed up to haul home the chairs we said we'd give them. I offered to take them in the car. When I got back from that, I finished the cookies and watched Ever After with Garrick and Adrienne on her bed. On the way back downstairs I was sidetracked by Anna who insisted I hear the new song she's writing. Then I went to the basement and talked to Rebecca (who is staying down there with a friend and John). Then I came back to the main floor and chilled with Garrick awhile before getting him comfortable on the couch (I guess John'll have to sleep in the basement) and coming to type this. It's lovely. I like this.
As far as mental health, I was able to watch for me getting out of control tonight and was able to restrain myself. And honesty helps: these are my concerns. How many years have I been saying to Sam, "Just communicate"? I don't know, but enough that he says it right back to me. That's what he's there for. Gold stars for Sam. I'm taking deep breaths and reminding myself to be calm. I'm going out to coffee with eli* tomorrow morning and have group tomorrow night. These are good things. I'm really looking forward to group.
Work today was really draggy. I never quite woke up though I managed to sort and box 500+ clothes hangers and do two sales on the computer (yay!). I'm hopeful that tomorrow I will be more awake and excited to have a better day. I still like my job a whole lot though I'm getting anxious that I'm going to start hating it. Also, Kat is gone for the week and I miss her. She's super comforting and I could have used that today.
Oh! And I have a new bike! It's a peice of shit, just like Roscoe, and that makes me illogically pleased. The seat is all duct taped up and the brakes don't work, but the gears work well and the frame and tires look good. I'm going to haul it up to Community Cycle on Alberta tomorrow or Wednesday and pay them to raise the stem and fix the brakes. It was a $40 bike, so I'm willing to spend another $20-40 to fix it up. What I like about it: it's a dark green mountain bike and feels sturdy and solid - not flimsy like a road bike - but it's also pretty light, which is good since I have to lift it all the way up when I ride the MAX. It's so nice having a bike to use, though, until I get this one ready: I like not feeling rushed. Go me.
My housemates really are amazing, though. After driving over to Garrick and Amy's to pick up the former and six cats, I made chocolate chip cookies. I got distracted mid-way through when Emmie and Jane (who just moved in, like, five blocks from us) showed up to haul home the chairs we said we'd give them. I offered to take them in the car. When I got back from that, I finished the cookies and watched Ever After with Garrick and Adrienne on her bed. On the way back downstairs I was sidetracked by Anna who insisted I hear the new song she's writing. Then I went to the basement and talked to Rebecca (who is staying down there with a friend and John). Then I came back to the main floor and chilled with Garrick awhile before getting him comfortable on the couch (I guess John'll have to sleep in the basement) and coming to type this. It's lovely. I like this.
As far as mental health, I was able to watch for me getting out of control tonight and was able to restrain myself. And honesty helps: these are my concerns. How many years have I been saying to Sam, "Just communicate"? I don't know, but enough that he says it right back to me. That's what he's there for. Gold stars for Sam. I'm taking deep breaths and reminding myself to be calm. I'm going out to coffee with eli* tomorrow morning and have group tomorrow night. These are good things. I'm really looking forward to group.
Work today was really draggy. I never quite woke up though I managed to sort and box 500+ clothes hangers and do two sales on the computer (yay!). I'm hopeful that tomorrow I will be more awake and excited to have a better day. I still like my job a whole lot though I'm getting anxious that I'm going to start hating it. Also, Kat is gone for the week and I miss her. She's super comforting and I could have used that today.
Oh! And I have a new bike! It's a peice of shit, just like Roscoe, and that makes me illogically pleased. The seat is all duct taped up and the brakes don't work, but the gears work well and the frame and tires look good. I'm going to haul it up to Community Cycle on Alberta tomorrow or Wednesday and pay them to raise the stem and fix the brakes. It was a $40 bike, so I'm willing to spend another $20-40 to fix it up. What I like about it: it's a dark green mountain bike and feels sturdy and solid - not flimsy like a road bike - but it's also pretty light, which is good since I have to lift it all the way up when I ride the MAX. It's so nice having a bike to use, though, until I get this one ready: I like not feeling rushed. Go me.