lists
faults
-forget others are equally complex humans
-overdramatize things
-exceedingly foolish
-make emotional/social mistakes that seem intentional
-am indirect before i realize i'm doing it
-confuse my mental and actual reality
-simultaneously open and close doors for a canceled-out effect
today: pos
-caught the right bus
-finished the da vinci code (started it two days ago, found the goddess worship theme a laugh since the only female character was so dependent/inferior, enjoyed all the symbolism)
-decided to take a break from tarot
-stitched my my favorite jacket (holes in all but one pocket)
-journaled a little
-wrote a sonnet
-controlled my anxiety at work
-sam texted me
-felt attractive in my jeans
-felt thin
-wore a long sleeve shirt
-wore a teal beret
-finished touching up my second ever sex-themed poem - and this one is sex positive!
finished the "fat is beautiful" zine
-wrote that email
-haven't cried yet
-debated the difference between nothing and everything mattering
-worked on "i'm sorry" and "rhymes and reasons" (guitar)
-feeling mostly sane
-downloaded a whole lot of kimya
-let go
today: neg
-too much sugar
-shoulder pain
-too much money on food
-possibly up too late
-not knowing how to say no to someone who wants to hang out
-talked too much when i got home
-return of sanity means the return of wanting to be in cutesy indie love (sigh)
tomorrow
-costco: a bulk grocery adventure starring anna, newt, adrienne, juniper the car and emily
-$5 craigslist blender acquisition: starring newt, juniper and guests
-squash soup making: starring newt, possible anna (for emotional support and ingredients fetching), and the new blender (as yet unnamed...)
-wearing cold weather clothes: starring my favorite sweater, my new shoes, leg warmers and maybe even a scarf!
-probably a little angsty loneliness: starring newt and facebook stalking
-maybe bike shopping: starring community cycle on alberta, newt, a wad of cash and whoever she can convince to come, too
now
-a scrubs episode or two
-cozy-room-ness
-achey shoulders
-sleep in my cozy closet nest (which adrienne thinks i should advertise when looking for a boyfriend..."swf, has closet")
<3
-forget others are equally complex humans
-overdramatize things
-exceedingly foolish
-make emotional/social mistakes that seem intentional
-am indirect before i realize i'm doing it
-confuse my mental and actual reality
-simultaneously open and close doors for a canceled-out effect
today: pos
-caught the right bus
-finished the da vinci code (started it two days ago, found the goddess worship theme a laugh since the only female character was so dependent/inferior, enjoyed all the symbolism)
-decided to take a break from tarot
-stitched my my favorite jacket (holes in all but one pocket)
-journaled a little
-wrote a sonnet
-controlled my anxiety at work
-sam texted me
-felt attractive in my jeans
-felt thin
-wore a long sleeve shirt
-wore a teal beret
-finished touching up my second ever sex-themed poem - and this one is sex positive!
finished the "fat is beautiful" zine
-wrote that email
-haven't cried yet
-debated the difference between nothing and everything mattering
-worked on "i'm sorry" and "rhymes and reasons" (guitar)
-feeling mostly sane
-downloaded a whole lot of kimya
-let go
today: neg
-too much sugar
-shoulder pain
-too much money on food
-possibly up too late
-not knowing how to say no to someone who wants to hang out
-talked too much when i got home
-return of sanity means the return of wanting to be in cutesy indie love (sigh)
tomorrow
-costco: a bulk grocery adventure starring anna, newt, adrienne, juniper the car and emily
-$5 craigslist blender acquisition: starring newt, juniper and guests
-squash soup making: starring newt, possible anna (for emotional support and ingredients fetching), and the new blender (as yet unnamed...)
-wearing cold weather clothes: starring my favorite sweater, my new shoes, leg warmers and maybe even a scarf!
-probably a little angsty loneliness: starring newt and facebook stalking
-maybe bike shopping: starring community cycle on alberta, newt, a wad of cash and whoever she can convince to come, too
now
-a scrubs episode or two
-cozy-room-ness
-achey shoulders
-sleep in my cozy closet nest (which adrienne thinks i should advertise when looking for a boyfriend..."swf, has closet")
<3