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Woke up with severe shoulder pain (left). Fun times. Some of the most intense pain I've had in a while. It was strong enough that I had to center myself within it to be able to not freak out.Getting out of bed, Garrick's massages, and a heat pack have helped, but the pain isn't all the way gone.
Yesterday I made applesauce muffins, arroz con leche and brownies. Then I picked Anna and Noah up on Hawthorne because Anna was sick and got ginger ale for Adrienne. Garrick arrived and put the first three seasons of M*A*S*H on my computer and then we took the 33 and then the 72 to 82nd and Glisan where we went to the Knittn Kitten - a yarn and cloth thrift store. I bought four skeins of pink yarn that I have sock plans for. Then we took the 72 all the way down way past Division to a Mexican food store. We got arepa mix (which was the point of going there) and tamarindos because they remind me of Mexico. Arepas are this fried/baked corn flour Venezuelan food that my family loves. I have only ever seen this brand of it and I don't think they've changed their packaging in all the years my family has been buying it.
Then we took the bus all the way home and watched M*A*S*H and ate the three arepas I made (so good! amazing! ah!) and took Adrienne to the Greyhound Station and then had a small fight and I drove him home and drove too fast in general and got home and talked to Max in the kitchen and then sat at my computer talking to Garrick about what had gone wrong with the day and feeling tired and overwhelmed and then playing Neopets for the first time in, like, three years. At 3am, Garrick took a cab over here which was silly and ridiculous and fun and we slept until 11 when I woke up with the shoulder pain.
I made more muffins this morning (with less sugar) and Garrick went to Whole Foods to get supplies for cheesecake and he got me cheese and beans, too, for arepas that I will make later on. So now he's in the kitchen making cheesecake (blending graham crackers right now) and kneading bread for me (I'm making pan de jamon as well) and I'm carrying a heat pack on my shoulder and drinking tons of ginger tea and playing Neopets and posting this and feeling overwhelmed by people who want to be friends with me and trying to figure out why I feel so threatened when people like me and why I associate anyone wanting to be friends with me as them wanting something from me.
And I feel old. I don't want to feel old. I want to feel young. I'm 19. I want my body to feel youthful. I want to have energy and do well on small amounts of sleep. I want to be carefree and adventurous and laugh a lot and easily.
Yesterday I made applesauce muffins, arroz con leche and brownies. Then I picked Anna and Noah up on Hawthorne because Anna was sick and got ginger ale for Adrienne. Garrick arrived and put the first three seasons of M*A*S*H on my computer and then we took the 33 and then the 72 to 82nd and Glisan where we went to the Knittn Kitten - a yarn and cloth thrift store. I bought four skeins of pink yarn that I have sock plans for. Then we took the 72 all the way down way past Division to a Mexican food store. We got arepa mix (which was the point of going there) and tamarindos because they remind me of Mexico. Arepas are this fried/baked corn flour Venezuelan food that my family loves. I have only ever seen this brand of it and I don't think they've changed their packaging in all the years my family has been buying it.
Then we took the bus all the way home and watched M*A*S*H and ate the three arepas I made (so good! amazing! ah!) and took Adrienne to the Greyhound Station and then had a small fight and I drove him home and drove too fast in general and got home and talked to Max in the kitchen and then sat at my computer talking to Garrick about what had gone wrong with the day and feeling tired and overwhelmed and then playing Neopets for the first time in, like, three years. At 3am, Garrick took a cab over here which was silly and ridiculous and fun and we slept until 11 when I woke up with the shoulder pain.
I made more muffins this morning (with less sugar) and Garrick went to Whole Foods to get supplies for cheesecake and he got me cheese and beans, too, for arepas that I will make later on. So now he's in the kitchen making cheesecake (blending graham crackers right now) and kneading bread for me (I'm making pan de jamon as well) and I'm carrying a heat pack on my shoulder and drinking tons of ginger tea and playing Neopets and posting this and feeling overwhelmed by people who want to be friends with me and trying to figure out why I feel so threatened when people like me and why I associate anyone wanting to be friends with me as them wanting something from me.
And I feel old. I don't want to feel old. I want to feel young. I'm 19. I want my body to feel youthful. I want to have energy and do well on small amounts of sleep. I want to be carefree and adventurous and laugh a lot and easily.