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I had an appointment last week with a potential local replacement for my therapist who moved over the summer. I'm worried that my previous therapist thinks that I don't value the work we've done together or that it hasn't been important enough to me to continue trying to make therapy work online. I am really grateful for the time I got to spend with him. But I haven't been able to adjust to it online and I don't know if I ever will. I know that's probably not what he thinks, really. I think I'm still upset that he left and that I wasn't important enough to stop that. That's not what intellectual me wanted, anyway, just old parts of emotional me. But in the end, I've had to make a decision to do something that's going to work for me now and that's finding a local therapist.
I am not 100% set on the guy from last week, yet, but I think he's competent and would be a half-decent option. He's closer to my age than my previous therapist and more heterosexual and I'm not sure how that's going to work for me. Maybe it will be ok. There doesn't seem to be as large a pool of gay therapist in the Raleigh area as I thought there would be. There are several, but a couple were too far away, one I know from another non-therapy venue, one was a little too new in his career for me to feel comfortable with, and my previous therapist advised not seeing another. So, that was all frustrating.
New guy was wearing space invaders socks and we talked a little about gaming, which I don't really do, but I can appreciate that it means we will have something safe to talk about when I need it. And he has an ok sense of humor, which I need, so we I think we will be ok.
I'm trying to decide if I want the two of them to talk, so old therapist can pass on anything he thinks is important. I'm not sure what that would be, but he offered and it seems like a bad idea to not take him up on that.
I am not 100% set on the guy from last week, yet, but I think he's competent and would be a half-decent option. He's closer to my age than my previous therapist and more heterosexual and I'm not sure how that's going to work for me. Maybe it will be ok. There doesn't seem to be as large a pool of gay therapist in the Raleigh area as I thought there would be. There are several, but a couple were too far away, one I know from another non-therapy venue, one was a little too new in his career for me to feel comfortable with, and my previous therapist advised not seeing another. So, that was all frustrating.
New guy was wearing space invaders socks and we talked a little about gaming, which I don't really do, but I can appreciate that it means we will have something safe to talk about when I need it. And he has an ok sense of humor, which I need, so we I think we will be ok.
I'm trying to decide if I want the two of them to talk, so old therapist can pass on anything he thinks is important. I'm not sure what that would be, but he offered and it seems like a bad idea to not take him up on that.