Aug 19, 2004 19:38
it just feels so wrong to say no to something so fucking beautiful, that's celebrating wonder in the world. i mean, how can you reach inside you and kill that appreciation for someone, being able to experience them like that? it just feels fundamentally wrong to me. i can't explain it. it feels so wrong that guilt just isn't big enough to stop it. i will not live my life dead inside. i will not kill the wonder inside me.