The Only Time
Well, they threw out the patho exam. Pretty sweet, huh? I hope my mark is at least an 80 without it cause of that whole GPA bullshit. In the meantime, I've gotta study for stats and I have two essays to write about what a good ethical person I am, one for submission to a scholarship and the second for the position of student representative on the research ethics board at my school.
Which of course doesn't get anywhere close to what I'm really thinking about. Simon's coming down to the city today. I know I won't see him, there'll be no "Hey, how's it been?" that kinda thing. No one's gonna call me up and say "We're down here, you should come down." That makes me sad. I am working really hard to shake guilt, not to focus on my past sins, not to over-stress about what people are thinking and stuff like that. And that tells me to call up Stryder and ask him what's going on tonight. But just cause I'm ready (and don't get me wrong, I have no idea whether or not I really am) doesn't mean he is. And I wanna give him that respect, ya know? At least, I think it's respect.
Which of course doesn't get anywhere close to what I'm really thinking about. Simon's coming down to the city today. I know I won't see him, there'll be no "Hey, how's it been?" that kinda thing. No one's gonna call me up and say "We're down here, you should come down." That makes me sad. I am working really hard to shake guilt, not to focus on my past sins, not to over-stress about what people are thinking and stuff like that. And that tells me to call up Stryder and ask him what's going on tonight. But just cause I'm ready (and don't get me wrong, I have no idea whether or not I really am) doesn't mean he is. And I wanna give him that respect, ya know? At least, I think it's respect.