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i have no fucking idea whats going on in chem, im screwwweeedd for that test tomorrow, and i also still need to do my math homework....
im psyched for tomorrow cause it will be warm and nikki and i are wearing some pretty cool outfits that we created today at my house in honor of "you're the one that i want" cause we're that cool.
what is WRONG with me lately? i HATE warm weather. but suddenly, recently, ive been so psyched for it. ive been so weird lately. not even tho, i mean other than the randomly liking warm weather, outwardly ive still been same old super-procrastinatey super-lovey super-tired super-weird super-oblivious hannah. but ive felt different. i dont know, that sounded like crazy emo didnt it?
i think this year has just all seemed really..useless. which is strange cause junior year is like..junior fucking year. like sats and all that. and in theory prom but of course we're deprived. i think its just like one of those times where you're supposed to be figuring out your future so you have to like look big picture at yourself as a person and everything and then i end up doing that thing where i realize that im really just compeltely boring and dont really have any specific talents or motivation or...i dont even know. all that looking big picture just makes it all really small and repetitive and useless and makes u see there isnt really much of an all at all. astronomy's gonna totally fuck with my mind next year./
im sorry, im not really sure why im being weird, im not even in a bad mood at all, my spirits are totally all lifty from my nikki-filled afternoon, i was jut like thinking about things in procrastination mode i guess. i dont know, i think i just really need to hang out with people this weekend (in between midsummer rehearsalness). and stop being dumb and cryptic. and also sleep.