and i have a sister somewhere
OH VACATION. you are most most welcome.
im chilly and my APUSH sweatshirt is dirty and my dad won't let me turn the heat up to 80 like i usually do. damn damn damn.
well im glad vaction is here anyway, but its sort of gotten off to a lonely/boring start. a lot of friends are away and its just me and my dad at home cause my sister and mom went off to visit my cousins in chicago. i didn't go with them cause i would have had to go right on my college trip the day after i got back, so i thought itd be too much. but now im kind of regretting it because it's not like im doing much at home anyway and i really wanna see my cousins... they're all younger (in chicago on my moms side anyway) but i adore being with them. and i dont see them as much anymore cause we stopped going to mexico in the winter, so now i only see them for like a week in the summer all year.
anyway this week was pretty nice. snow day, valentines day, a hilarious english project assignment (acting out the wife of bath's tale... hahaha should be fun, except i have to get up at like 7 to go film it), midsummer anthony lectures with nikki and kate and adrianna and nica, film club, yeah good stuff. i felt like i havent seen anyone in ages tho... which is ridiculous cause i just saw everyone freakin YESTERDAY.
im sosososo excited for the college visiting tip with nikki and kate and molly this vacation!!!! the only issue is that i get carsick and we're going in a minivan with seven people (kate's and molly's moms and kate's little sister are also coming), so that might be...uncomfortable. and its gonna be super weird going to long island and not visiting my great aunt and uncle. this is the first time ive been around there since they died. like when i picture long island, i picture their little cozy house filled with new york bagels and 30 different kaleidescopes and basement filled with the little furry toys that uncle leo sold and.. i dont know i just keep having to remind myself that that house is now empty and unoccupied and sold and a trip to long island no longer entails going there and seeing them. i dont know its just weird.
it also sucks that im not gonna be able to see esther even tho we'll be like relatively close to her. im not trying to be whiny because i totally understand that it doenst make sense for all of us to go visit her when its kind of out of the way and we dont have much time and im the only one interested in rochester. its just that its another reminder that i dont ever see her anymore. i probably wont even see her spring break because shes thinking about going with her boyfriend to the dominican republic. this is also my first vacation without her, cause she came home for the holidays, and i have no idea what to do with myself. every other school vacationive ever had in my entire life, there was always someone there to hang out with and go to far too many movies with and watch far too many dvds of the same show with and go to the mall and buy far too much clothes with and dance around the basement with in an attempt to get some excersize when we began to feel vacation fattening us. maybe thats why im kind of lonely already even tho its only been like a day.
im sorry, this entry was a lot more whiny and long and unneccessary than i intended. im actually not in a terrible mood, im about to eat ravioli with my lovely father and then head off to izzys for crazy fun. and, of course, its vacation.
happy vacation everyone!