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You know, I've been battling this thing for quite some time and I never have let it depress me. Until now.. I find myself going to sleep at 8 and rising at 11 the next day. I know this isn't healthy, but I do it nonetheless. I'm losing weight, and my stomach is always in knots. Thank god for Katya. I think she gets it. She'll see me being a complete bum, and she'll make me get up and go somewhere with her. They say that nowhere in history is it recorded that someone has conquered death (other than jesus, but I take that as a matter of opinion). I don't believe that to be true. I've seen so many people conquer death each and every day. I'm going to be one of those people. The one that doesn't give in to the depression and the anxiety of it all. I think I might quit my job and take the one I was offered in an OB-GYN clinic. I think being around the babies and the expecting women will give me a new insight into things. Always surrounded by new life, and life to be, other than overmedicated individuals who are in constant pain and constantly having a bad outlook on life. Giving up.. if you will. I will never give up. It's not in my nature. So for now, I'm going to allow myself one week of depression. One week of lying around and sulking about my condition, and after that week is over, I will not allow myself to give in to depression. It has never consumed me, and it never will again.

I'm really looking forward to Trent's visit this weekend. We're going to see Shayna perform, and on Saturday we're going to eat at SOHO. I'm really really excited.

I'm also very excited that LeAnne and Tim are going to be in SC instead of Germany!!! I'm SO going to be seeing that baby like all the time.

Carpe Diem