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I never wanted to think about that again. And then I thought about it. And I told him. What the hell was I thinking?! That's not something you tell people. That's something that you hide. It's shameful. And now he knows I'm weak. He was just being kind to me. He really thinks that I'm weak. He probably never wants to see me again. Probably ashamed of me.
I should have expected this to happen. I had to remember someday. Now he's ashamed of me and he knows how weak I am, and oh God what will my Master think?! What am I going to do? I let someone in! What do I do now I let someone in?! It's scary!
WhatdoIdo?!