So I've Been Thinking
Today has been extermely slow for me. I was kind of happy to be back at work, I think that I needed to do something to keep my mind off of thinking many negative things. It was nice to see my mom since I havent seen her in the past four days. She hasnt been grumpy towards me which is kinda nice. I dont need someone on my back right now. I talked to Gavin last night. It was his birthday too! I remembered! I asked him if he was with anyone else and he told me that he wasnt. I dont know! It seems weird that Gavin wouldnt be with anyone but at the sametime I can see that because he is so focused on himself. I think that we might hang out tonight. I have been over Robs for the past three days and I am having fun and all but I want to go out and do something. So I might see him tonight! If not, I dont know what I am going to do. On Friday I went to the club with Lisa and Lauren. That was a lot of fun being able to go out with the girls! I was in the hot girl/hot body contest. It was so much fun getting on stage and dancing and the DJ from 955 was fricken awesome. He was so nice to me...I even got a hug at the end of the night. I met some really cool people that night too. I think that we might go back sometime soon. We had a lot of fun. Then on Saturday Lauren came over Robs and she spent the night. She met Kevin! I was surprised that Kevin even came over to hang out. It was so early in the morning! But it was nice to see him. He told me that he was going to hang out with me later that day. Boy that was never going to happen. I guess six people showed up at his house and he was drunk for six hours. I was so mad that night...he made plans to hang out with me and it never happened. I almost got in a fight with two guys that night too. They were talking so much shit about Kevin...and of course, being the good girlfriend I was standing up for him and I was getting so angry and upset that I was in tears because they were being so mean. He called and wanted to come over and get me but I wasnt going to leave. I didnt want to leave my friends. So he ended up having Kyle drive over to get me and when he got there he got my attention by throwing the phone at me! I was so angry about that, it was so rude...I hate when I am treated like that. I dont deserve to be treated like that. I am not going through this again. So I didnt leave with him and I think that he is mad at me. I havent heard from him..only through text messages. I havent hung out with him either. So yeah, I am figuring out that he is mad at me probably for not leaving with him or just me being a complete bitch. I dont mean to, I just dont know whats wrong with me right now. I went shopping and bought him a couple of little things. Nothing special, just cute little things that I wanted to give him. I dont know, I dont know if he is going to want to see me anytime soon but I have stuff for him. Anyway, I have to go get dressed. I have to work at Applebees this morning. I think working there is going to cheer me up, it always does when I am in a bad mood or upset about something. I just hope the people that I like are working today. I dunno...I might write more later if I get around to it...I might just go home after work and nap until someone calls and wants to hang out. I hope I hear from him...I really miss him...I miss "us".