why does my life always have to flip flop.... 360's mean nothing to me bitch i do 540s
Fuck me.....
everytime i think im doing something right or things are on the right path... BAYM i hit a brick wall. where am i. what have i done. i just dont get it anymore.
she got mad at me today beacuse i was tired and wanted to take a little nap before our date. i mean she didnt feel good today so i let her sleep in till 2 while i watched the baby. i got awoken a half hour into my nap because she wanted to start getting ready to go out on our date. i got upset and i think rightfully so.. because i was fucking tired. and its been all down hill since then. for once video games had nothing to do with my fights... i was selfish because i wanted to take a god damn nap.
HOW FUCKINg DARE I BE TIRED AT 2:30 IN THE AFTERNOON WHEN I GOT UP AT 7 HOW FUCKING DARE I!!
so this time she left and said she is not coming back.
she threw my engament ring on the table and told me repeatedly she was serious this time and she is quote unqote.. "DONE"
now i know i have my flaws and i admit i am a tad one sided about hings mainly because i am not used to the life i am living right now. im not used to being a father. and most of all i am not used to being in a relationship because i never really have them. but still i dont think i am all that bad... yet she makes me feel like the fucking devil. the worst part is ive seen all this coming for a while and though my heart was fighting it i knew this would eventually happen.. i knew the flood gates would eventually stay open i would drown. but i didnt want it to happen... i just dont see how i was int he wrong... i wanted to go out had every intention on going out... i just wanted a little bit of rest.
i love her and mark my words even if she really neer comes back qand this is the last straw for us. i still love her. im not going to beg im not going to plead. if she wants to go fine.
ill move on in life. it hurts. it sucks. it blows. my eyes are on the verge of crying.. like i can feel the moistening behind my blue eyes.. but im promising myself to be strong.
life is not over.... it just has a few wrenches flying in my direction.
ugh.... i got my riley and my milenko...
if life is so much better through your eyes, then why cant i see it?
everytime i think im doing something right or things are on the right path... BAYM i hit a brick wall. where am i. what have i done. i just dont get it anymore.
she got mad at me today beacuse i was tired and wanted to take a little nap before our date. i mean she didnt feel good today so i let her sleep in till 2 while i watched the baby. i got awoken a half hour into my nap because she wanted to start getting ready to go out on our date. i got upset and i think rightfully so.. because i was fucking tired. and its been all down hill since then. for once video games had nothing to do with my fights... i was selfish because i wanted to take a god damn nap.
HOW FUCKINg DARE I BE TIRED AT 2:30 IN THE AFTERNOON WHEN I GOT UP AT 7 HOW FUCKING DARE I!!
so this time she left and said she is not coming back.
she threw my engament ring on the table and told me repeatedly she was serious this time and she is quote unqote.. "DONE"
now i know i have my flaws and i admit i am a tad one sided about hings mainly because i am not used to the life i am living right now. im not used to being a father. and most of all i am not used to being in a relationship because i never really have them. but still i dont think i am all that bad... yet she makes me feel like the fucking devil. the worst part is ive seen all this coming for a while and though my heart was fighting it i knew this would eventually happen.. i knew the flood gates would eventually stay open i would drown. but i didnt want it to happen... i just dont see how i was int he wrong... i wanted to go out had every intention on going out... i just wanted a little bit of rest.
i love her and mark my words even if she really neer comes back qand this is the last straw for us. i still love her. im not going to beg im not going to plead. if she wants to go fine.
ill move on in life. it hurts. it sucks. it blows. my eyes are on the verge of crying.. like i can feel the moistening behind my blue eyes.. but im promising myself to be strong.
life is not over.... it just has a few wrenches flying in my direction.
ugh.... i got my riley and my milenko...
if life is so much better through your eyes, then why cant i see it?