I've become so Numb
Well the last few days have been pure hell. 12 days of work with only 2 days off, on top of not getting to talk to rachel for 5 of them, and fights, and a whole load of shit. Ive got 2 more days before I even get to talk to her, we have a 4 day weekend and I will not be seeing her, nope not even once. Im going out of my mind...things have to get better one way or another. maybe all this shit has just been hints that she wants to end it. I dont know what is up anymore. Its been going on a week and a half since ive gotten to talk to her and have a nice conversation. well she knows how i feel, ive made my attempts, its all on her side now..nothing more i can do to save this right now. well i gotta go get ready for another night of shit and work and shitty panera buying fucks that think their gods gift to the world. One complaint..just one..and someone is gunna be leaving panera via the window. Thisll be a wonderful weekend. Im so looking foward to sitting at home, alone, without my girlfriend even calling me. night all, see ya next time.