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Wow, its been a while! I am home for CHRISTmas...it's wonderful. Ventura is so stinking green. I love it here, I appreciate it so much more since I now live in the not so beautiful Las Vegas.
Things are really starting to happen. Like...with Josh and I. We have been looking at rings. He is showing major motivation to get the show on the road and propose to me. I know it will still take quite a bit of time because he wants to get school mostly finished and also have a good full time job before he proposes. I respect that. It just... well no... I am just impatient. And a romantic. Planning is never romantic, spontaneity is. I realize though that one is a bit more reasonable and responsible where the other is temporary fun and excitement. He balances me out really well.
It's amazing what Josh does to me. I feel so secure in his love. When I think about marrying him, it does sort of freak me out. It is a huge decision and I won't pretend that I am ready for it at this second because I don't know that I am. What I do know is that I am in love with him 100% and he is the person I want to spend my life with.
I think it's arrogant when we make plans, assuming that we are entitled to that time here on earth when so many are robbed of life early. If it is in God's will for Josh and I, I will happily marry him hopefully within the next 2 years. We both have many things we'd like to accomplish before we marry but I think 2 years is a good amount of time-- again, if it is Gods will for us.
Merry Christmas everyone! I hope this Christmas is filled with quality family time and thankfulness.
Things are really starting to happen. Like...with Josh and I. We have been looking at rings. He is showing major motivation to get the show on the road and propose to me. I know it will still take quite a bit of time because he wants to get school mostly finished and also have a good full time job before he proposes. I respect that. It just... well no... I am just impatient. And a romantic. Planning is never romantic, spontaneity is. I realize though that one is a bit more reasonable and responsible where the other is temporary fun and excitement. He balances me out really well.
It's amazing what Josh does to me. I feel so secure in his love. When I think about marrying him, it does sort of freak me out. It is a huge decision and I won't pretend that I am ready for it at this second because I don't know that I am. What I do know is that I am in love with him 100% and he is the person I want to spend my life with.
I think it's arrogant when we make plans, assuming that we are entitled to that time here on earth when so many are robbed of life early. If it is in God's will for Josh and I, I will happily marry him hopefully within the next 2 years. We both have many things we'd like to accomplish before we marry but I think 2 years is a good amount of time-- again, if it is Gods will for us.
Merry Christmas everyone! I hope this Christmas is filled with quality family time and thankfulness.