teraesa
"people say they hate fake people. but in all honesty, people don't want to know the truth. people don't want to know when you're sad, depressed, angry, hurt, whatever. people want everyone to be happy all the time...."
"i've come to the conclusion that i am a burden. no one wants to hear about my problems. when they say they do, they're only saying so to be polite."
To the author of these words, Teraesa, I love you and reading this really made me feel sad because I see so much light in you. Sometimes you seem to be the essence of how I want to be, but I know that not all things are as good as they seem on the outside. I know that no matter how happy you seem; it's just covering pain that's inside of you. I know how you feel believe it or not because I feel the same way. I don't where it comes from, but I can think of many sources. The thing I think hurts me the most is that I feel this way but I can't tell anyone; I mean, it's just as you said, "people don't want to know when you are sad, depressed, angry, hurt, whatever..." They really don't and what hurts most is that they don't. I've learned this, Teraesa, from other people I have meant in my life, from my parents and old friends, that you can't rely on them, you really can't rely on them, to make you happy, or to help you when you're hurt or in trouble, you can't rely on them to make you happy, you can't rely on anything. I'm trying SO hard not to do that anymore. I am trying so hard to say that things just don't hurt me, turn me cheek, smile, instead of frown, and laugh instead of cry, but eventually it catches up to me. Then I have a night where I feel like I just don't want to be around anymore and that if I really was gone the next day... really why would it matter? I stay up all night crying and the next day just starts everything over. I wish I could hide it as well as you do... that's really how I wish I could be, but I slip up every now and then... Teraesa, I know how you feel, but I am here and Rachel is too and I can say that we both truly care for you and want the best for you. I really want to see you truly happy because you deserve it and you are an amazing person..... and besides, I think your brother is hot remember. I'm sorry I was being too serious for you haha, I needed to add that last part in just for a laugh.
"i've come to the conclusion that i am a burden. no one wants to hear about my problems. when they say they do, they're only saying so to be polite."
To the author of these words, Teraesa, I love you and reading this really made me feel sad because I see so much light in you. Sometimes you seem to be the essence of how I want to be, but I know that not all things are as good as they seem on the outside. I know that no matter how happy you seem; it's just covering pain that's inside of you. I know how you feel believe it or not because I feel the same way. I don't where it comes from, but I can think of many sources. The thing I think hurts me the most is that I feel this way but I can't tell anyone; I mean, it's just as you said, "people don't want to know when you are sad, depressed, angry, hurt, whatever..." They really don't and what hurts most is that they don't. I've learned this, Teraesa, from other people I have meant in my life, from my parents and old friends, that you can't rely on them, you really can't rely on them, to make you happy, or to help you when you're hurt or in trouble, you can't rely on them to make you happy, you can't rely on anything. I'm trying SO hard not to do that anymore. I am trying so hard to say that things just don't hurt me, turn me cheek, smile, instead of frown, and laugh instead of cry, but eventually it catches up to me. Then I have a night where I feel like I just don't want to be around anymore and that if I really was gone the next day... really why would it matter? I stay up all night crying and the next day just starts everything over. I wish I could hide it as well as you do... that's really how I wish I could be, but I slip up every now and then... Teraesa, I know how you feel, but I am here and Rachel is too and I can say that we both truly care for you and want the best for you. I really want to see you truly happy because you deserve it and you are an amazing person..... and besides, I think your brother is hot remember. I'm sorry I was being too serious for you haha, I needed to add that last part in just for a laugh.