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I'm very cranky and moody right now. I don't think I have ever hated myself or this summer as much as I do these days. Seriously this just blows. There is nothing to do around here and I'm just lonely. Sure there are some good times but thats not always enough. I miss school and I miss feeling like I belonged somewhere and someone wanted me around. Here, I feel like another person aimlessly walking getting lost in the shuffle. I'm that person that everyone says hi to but never really stops to have a conversation with. I don't think people even know me anymore. Well the people around here anyway. No one has taken the time to get to know me. Everyones busy with their own lives and the things they need to do that sometimes I feel passed up. Take for instance harborfest. I was supposed to have about 5 ppl come... everyone else backed out except my Heady. I'm just sick of that shit. Really I am. If you make plans f'in keep them for once. Why can't people keep plans, since when am I a last priority. Not to mention I hate hypocritical people, who think the world revolves around them and their problems. News flash people your life isn't the only one that sucks. Deal with it. Sometimes the hardest part about growing up is realizing you're not a kid anymore with childish games to be playing. It's the real world and people are assholes. They always have been and now you're just not as oblivious as you were even a year ago. It's funny how things change and things have been changing and one day it just slaps you in the face and you realize you are far to old to be playing the same bullshit games and dealing with the same bullshit people you always have before. Another thing I've realized is I'm not afriad of people anymore, I really dont give a shit what people think of me these days. Why should I? Either people are going to like me for who I am or they can kiss my ass goodbye, I don't need people making my life harder than it already is. I apologize for this insane bitch session but it needed to be done. I really hope no one reads this... but if you do, leave a comment
Quote of the day: "There's nothing like feeling like you belong to something bigger than who you are."