Promise
Disclaimer : shinee isn't mine :D I only own the plot
Pairing : Broken Onew/Key, Jonghyun/Key(I't up to you to see them as a lover or friend)
Rating : pg-13
Beta : shinee_xoxo thank you so muuch bb, you're such a jongkey bias :P
Summary : All the people Kibum love, leave him it's up to jonghyun to take him from the sadness now.
You leave me again.
Go away with another love.
You leave me alone in this cold room.
Why Jinki?
Why have you left me again?
*Flashback
“Kibum I’m going again,” Jinki said.
“Where? Are you going to that man again, Jinki?” asked Kibum sadly.
But he already knew, because for the past three weeks, Jinki had been leaving him -cold and alone- for no reason. He would be gone for several days, and then come back again for 2.
It’s nothing Kibum, you don’t have to be worried. He is just a friend of mine. Jinki makes excuses, and started to pack his clothes.
Kibum couldn’t take it anymore, he had already been hurting for too long, “Don’t have to be worried?! You pabo, I’m your wife!” He screamed to his husband, tears could be seen in his beautiful eyes.
“You’ve been leaving me for a “friend”?! He let his entire burden out. He never really could keep things locked up for long.
“You can go too if you want.” said Jinki coldly. He didn’t care about how Kibum felt. “I never told you that you couldn’t leave, if you want, you can go out too. I won’t care.” Jinki walked toward the door and left Kibum alone in their bedroom.
*End flashback
I can’t take it anymore, not alone. I called my best friend...Jonghyun.
“Kibum? What happened? Are you crying?” Asks a concerned Jonghyun.
“Me and Jinki...” That was all I had to say for him to react:
“Wait me there Kibum,” Jonghyun cut Kibum words.
The call ended.
The urge to cry overwhelms me again. I have no one again.
Like before.
All of the people I love always leave me behind, my mother, my father, my grandmother, and my friends. They all start to leave me, one by one by one. Now the one I loved was leaving too. Jinki was no different.
That someone who said that he loved me, someone who said that he would always be with me, someone who said that he wouldn’t leave me.
“You’re lying, Onew.” I said slowly.
And I hate it. Why do I still have hope in you? I pitied myself, yes that’s right, but I can’t help it. I love you and I need you. I knew that he would leave me sometime, but it the crushing reality of now still hurts.
Something sparkles, I see a shining silver razor blade lying on the floor, Jinki must have dropped it in his haste, but it’s like it’s calling me to use it.
I grab the silver thing, I haven’t been doing this since Jonghyun find out, and I know I’ve promised to him that I won’t do it anymore, but I feel that need. The need to have something to distract me from this kind of pain.
No I shouldn’t do it. I already promised to Jonghyun that I won t do it anymore. What should I do?
Still in my confused state, I heard the front door was open. Was it Jinki?! Is he regretting what he was doing?
“KIBUM!” shouts Jonghyun coming towards my room. He looks shocked, when he sees the silver thing in my hand. “Kibum, what are you doing?!” he takes the silver blade from me.
“Slow down Jjong I haven’t done anything.” I try to calm him down, he looks so panicked.
“Are you sure? You aren’t lying to me, right?” He asks me again, trying to make sure that I really am not lying to him.
“I’m okay Jjong, really. Look I haven’t sliced my wrist, and there isn’t blood yet.” I say calmly. He would’ve seen some blood if he was even a second late….
“Thank God.” he said, “I’m happy you’re okay.” he hugs me tightly. He’s my only real friend. He knows how hard it is.
“Want to tell me what happened?” He releases me from the hug, and looks me in my eyes.
“You already know what happened in there, so why I do I have to tell you again?” I give him my one million watt smile, hoping he will leave me alone. I don’t need some fake attention anymore.
“Don’t smile, you’re hurting yourself more.” He pats my back warmly, but I can see the sadness in his eyes.
So I tell him, ‘and he said I can go too if I want’. I tell him everything. “Why does it hurt Jonghyun? Why do all the people I love leave me?” I feel my tears start to fall. “Am I not worth being loved? Am I that bad?” I hug him tightly. “I just want to be loved Jjong, I don’t want to be left behind again.”
He put my head in his chest, caressing my back slowly, like he always does when I’m like this. “Shhh… don’t cry, Kibum. I won’t leave you, I promise.”
But those words are no longer comforting.
“You’re lying, I know you’ll leave me like the others do.” I push him away, and he looks shocked. “Everyone who left me said the same thing at first, but...look. They’re all gone right?”
I don’t want to be hurt again.
“This will be the last time you get hurt like this, Kibum.” He tries to hug me again, but I flinch away.
“Don’t touch me!” I scream to him. “I don’t want to have false hope again, this was enough.”
“Kibum listen.” He grabs my hand. “I’m different to the others. I promise that. I won’t leave you, just trust me.” His sounds so confident, but his expression is gentle. “I promise Kibum.” He whispers and hugs me for the second time. I’m so confused, I don t know what should I do.
“Don’t break my hope again Jonghyun, promise?”
“I promise Kibum.”
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Pairing : Broken Onew/Key, Jonghyun/Key(I't up to you to see them as a lover or friend)
Rating : pg-13
Beta : shinee_xoxo thank you so muuch bb, you're such a jongkey bias :P
Summary : All the people Kibum love, leave him it's up to jonghyun to take him from the sadness now.
You leave me again.
Go away with another love.
You leave me alone in this cold room.
Why Jinki?
Why have you left me again?
*Flashback
“Kibum I’m going again,” Jinki said.
“Where? Are you going to that man again, Jinki?” asked Kibum sadly.
But he already knew, because for the past three weeks, Jinki had been leaving him -cold and alone- for no reason. He would be gone for several days, and then come back again for 2.
It’s nothing Kibum, you don’t have to be worried. He is just a friend of mine. Jinki makes excuses, and started to pack his clothes.
Kibum couldn’t take it anymore, he had already been hurting for too long, “Don’t have to be worried?! You pabo, I’m your wife!” He screamed to his husband, tears could be seen in his beautiful eyes.
“You’ve been leaving me for a “friend”?! He let his entire burden out. He never really could keep things locked up for long.
“You can go too if you want.” said Jinki coldly. He didn’t care about how Kibum felt. “I never told you that you couldn’t leave, if you want, you can go out too. I won’t care.” Jinki walked toward the door and left Kibum alone in their bedroom.
*End flashback
I can’t take it anymore, not alone. I called my best friend...Jonghyun.
“Kibum? What happened? Are you crying?” Asks a concerned Jonghyun.
“Me and Jinki...” That was all I had to say for him to react:
“Wait me there Kibum,” Jonghyun cut Kibum words.
The call ended.
The urge to cry overwhelms me again. I have no one again.
Like before.
All of the people I love always leave me behind, my mother, my father, my grandmother, and my friends. They all start to leave me, one by one by one. Now the one I loved was leaving too. Jinki was no different.
That someone who said that he loved me, someone who said that he would always be with me, someone who said that he wouldn’t leave me.
“You’re lying, Onew.” I said slowly.
And I hate it. Why do I still have hope in you? I pitied myself, yes that’s right, but I can’t help it. I love you and I need you. I knew that he would leave me sometime, but it the crushing reality of now still hurts.
Something sparkles, I see a shining silver razor blade lying on the floor, Jinki must have dropped it in his haste, but it’s like it’s calling me to use it.
I grab the silver thing, I haven’t been doing this since Jonghyun find out, and I know I’ve promised to him that I won’t do it anymore, but I feel that need. The need to have something to distract me from this kind of pain.
No I shouldn’t do it. I already promised to Jonghyun that I won t do it anymore. What should I do?
Still in my confused state, I heard the front door was open. Was it Jinki?! Is he regretting what he was doing?
“KIBUM!” shouts Jonghyun coming towards my room. He looks shocked, when he sees the silver thing in my hand. “Kibum, what are you doing?!” he takes the silver blade from me.
“Slow down Jjong I haven’t done anything.” I try to calm him down, he looks so panicked.
“Are you sure? You aren’t lying to me, right?” He asks me again, trying to make sure that I really am not lying to him.
“I’m okay Jjong, really. Look I haven’t sliced my wrist, and there isn’t blood yet.” I say calmly. He would’ve seen some blood if he was even a second late….
“Thank God.” he said, “I’m happy you’re okay.” he hugs me tightly. He’s my only real friend. He knows how hard it is.
“Want to tell me what happened?” He releases me from the hug, and looks me in my eyes.
“You already know what happened in there, so why I do I have to tell you again?” I give him my one million watt smile, hoping he will leave me alone. I don’t need some fake attention anymore.
“Don’t smile, you’re hurting yourself more.” He pats my back warmly, but I can see the sadness in his eyes.
So I tell him, ‘and he said I can go too if I want’. I tell him everything. “Why does it hurt Jonghyun? Why do all the people I love leave me?” I feel my tears start to fall. “Am I not worth being loved? Am I that bad?” I hug him tightly. “I just want to be loved Jjong, I don’t want to be left behind again.”
He put my head in his chest, caressing my back slowly, like he always does when I’m like this. “Shhh… don’t cry, Kibum. I won’t leave you, I promise.”
But those words are no longer comforting.
“You’re lying, I know you’ll leave me like the others do.” I push him away, and he looks shocked. “Everyone who left me said the same thing at first, but...look. They’re all gone right?”
I don’t want to be hurt again.
“This will be the last time you get hurt like this, Kibum.” He tries to hug me again, but I flinch away.
“Don’t touch me!” I scream to him. “I don’t want to have false hope again, this was enough.”
“Kibum listen.” He grabs my hand. “I’m different to the others. I promise that. I won’t leave you, just trust me.” His sounds so confident, but his expression is gentle. “I promise Kibum.” He whispers and hugs me for the second time. I’m so confused, I don t know what should I do.
“Don’t break my hope again Jonghyun, promise?”
“I promise Kibum.”
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