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ive never felt to much pressure to deliver before.
yes its just an event and people tell me to laxing, but to be honest the entire night i couldnt.
hist essay, adhoc event 1, ayf next week...im really putting aside the majority of my academic work aside during this time period.
sometimes i wonder why the hell did i agree to do so much shit after blocks, went i should get a proper short rest. to be honest, i havent really had a break for a long time.
perhaps im too much of a yes man. perhaps thats why my energy has been going away. im keep doing stuff that is beyond my job scope yet i dont complain to the rest, telling them that they should do it. alright, when one is busy another should fill in. but so many people claiming they have to go for unspecified reasons and im here to plug the gaps....alright then i guess thats fine and i accept it. perhaps i am the water carrier and the guy doing the dirty work eventually, even though according to plan im not suppose to.
i am not complaining that ive to do the dirty work. faith and trust in others are preventing me from complaining or snapping at them. i shant let doubts cloud my judgment.
but i am not one who is to be used. so don't you dare abuse my trust.
if ive to do it for the greater good, so be it. sooner or later i will get my rewards.
and remember
i am not one who is to be used.
yes its just an event and people tell me to laxing, but to be honest the entire night i couldnt.
hist essay, adhoc event 1, ayf next week...im really putting aside the majority of my academic work aside during this time period.
sometimes i wonder why the hell did i agree to do so much shit after blocks, went i should get a proper short rest. to be honest, i havent really had a break for a long time.
perhaps im too much of a yes man. perhaps thats why my energy has been going away. im keep doing stuff that is beyond my job scope yet i dont complain to the rest, telling them that they should do it. alright, when one is busy another should fill in. but so many people claiming they have to go for unspecified reasons and im here to plug the gaps....alright then i guess thats fine and i accept it. perhaps i am the water carrier and the guy doing the dirty work eventually, even though according to plan im not suppose to.
i am not complaining that ive to do the dirty work. faith and trust in others are preventing me from complaining or snapping at them. i shant let doubts cloud my judgment.
but i am not one who is to be used. so don't you dare abuse my trust.
if ive to do it for the greater good, so be it. sooner or later i will get my rewards.
and remember
i am not one who is to be used.